you say it's my fault
that's probably true
but nothing i say
gets through to you

this isn't my fault
if i am to blame
why am i the one
shouldering the pain

you never talk to me
was it a lie
the day you left me
i swore not to cry

you said we'd be friends
i thought it was true
but after some time
that fell through

there is very little
i wouldn't say
if it would make
everything okay

i was in pain
i though i'd be tough
but my best effort
wasn't enough

i'd like to believe
that you could see
that girl you knew
wasn't really me

she was quiet
i'm always loud
she was so shy
when i'm always proud

she never talked to you
i had lots to say
but i guess i saved them
for another day

i just want to know
do you even care
or is the pain
my load to bear

do you miss me
when i'm not there
i really doubt
if you even care

when your quiet
i wish i could know
if you ever regret
letting me go

i miss you a lot
do you miss me too
or was i nothing
but a puppet to you

i want to know
when you look in my eyes
can you see the pain
torturing me inside

do you feel it too
it threatens to tear
everything inside
no, you don't care

how can you sit
still everyday
when i threaten t
to whither away

to turn into nothing
to become part of the earth
everyth=ime i witness your mirth

you can cause this much pain
and just turn away
how can it not effect you
everyday

i actually cared
but i lost my grip
i'm guessing i'm letting
my sanity slip

if i were to die
before i wake
god would find
no soul to take

you stole it from me
a long time ago
it was put on parade
for a sinister show

a grusome display
of my blood and gore
a show of my love
danced on the floor

after this time
the wounds will not heal
the pain in my heart
feels much to real

now when i looj
in the mirror at me
i deeply hate
the girl that i see