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Will the pain ever end? I know I had to end the relationship but gosh I miss him. I hate being lonely. I miss coming home to him. We really had fun together. I do not even know what to write. I know in my head that he did not treat me the way i deserve no one deserves to be yelled at or sworen at. But my heart says yo love him. If he could change e would be great but I know he won't change. His sister told me he treats everyone like this. She is who gave me the courage to leave him. I don't want to feel bad about myself and he mad me feel that. I struggle to look back and find good times. I know we had them but nothing sticks out.
I felt we became very seditary we had a weekly date but it was the same each week. I want adventure and romance. We wore sweats ALL the time. I like looking cute. He rarely gave me a compliment. I need to be told I look nice. I hate that I allowed myself to be treateed that way for so long.
I am working on myself so I can find someone that is decent. Someone who will treat me right.
I hate that I get physically ill thinking about him! I really miss him. Is it him or someone? I have not lived alone ever! I need comfort I need a companion and the dog is not cutting it right now.
I feel bad for ending the relationship I feel guilt why could he just be respectful?
New commitment to myself settle for nothing! |
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Posted by bear98_55122 on 2008-07-01 22:37:45 | Rating: | Views: 59
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Hey, it sounds like ur a little 2-2 devoted 2 this guy. You need to find yourself. Remember life before him, fix yourself up, get back on your feet, bond with your pet and then get into a relationship with someone who appreciates you-not that unfeeling jerk.
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Posted by rebeccasvocie
on 2008-07-04 19:29:11
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