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Sunrise
I wish you could see the sun rise right now. It’s gorgeous; a brand new day for everyone, a new start and a new beginning. There are no stars in the sky now, but the city lights from a far distance shines like them. It’s like heaven on Earth. I must watch sunrises more often. It’s just as breathtaking as the sunset. Oh my God, I just realize that if u stare at the colors of the sunrise for a long moment, you would notice how fast the sky gets lighter by the second! How amazing is that. I just found another sensation.
Is the single life the way to go for me?
I’m talking to Kevin right now. I told him what happened about two days ago when I told Aaron I didn’t want to be any more than just friends. Aaron probably isn’t taking it well because he just told me that he felt as if he’s been played by me. I guess he isn’t so stupid after all. I told him I didn’t want to be with him because it’s weird going out with him while my brother is going out with his sister when I’m actually just not interested anymore.
I start to complain, “I always do this! I push people away and I don’t know why.”
Kevin, obviously, had to keep me sane. “Kaye, babe, you have to open up. Not, like, physically, but give people chances.”
“That’s the thing. I’m too picky and I don’t know.”
“Wish I could give you a big hug right now. Why are you so picky though? Give people chances and I’m sure they’ll treat you right.”
Yeah. Why am I picky?
“I don’t know. Maybe it’s because I love my life too much and for someone to want to share my life with me, he has to be perfect. I don’t know. I just don’t like dealing with people who’ll make it stressful for me.”
“Then find someone that won’t. I believe you should do what you feel most comfortable doing.”
“But no one is perfect, Kevin.”
“I know I know.”
“You know, maybe I’m not meant to end up with anyone. I mean, I’m picky, I love the single life, I don’t ever want to get married, and I don’t want kids.”
“Kaye, if you love your life and you think having someone in it would ruin it, then stay single.”
“Yea, I guess staying single is more for me.”
So, that’s what I’ve come up with so far: “Staying single is more for me.” I had good reasons though! I just don’t know why a person like me would want to keep it at a single status? I am cool, I get along with people easily, I’m pretty and nice at the same time and not a lot of guys find that in a girl. I’m pretty much one of a rare kind! So, why waste my cool personality and good looks for nobody? Who knows about my love life, but I know one thing for sure: I’m the best friend anyone could ever have. For real! My purpose in life is probably to just be there for everyone. Well, it makes me happy, so it has to be! It doesn’t bother me much not having a boyfriend anyway. So this is it then! Cheers to the single life! Well, for now, that is.
I’ve found my TRUE friends.
“Hey, Kevin, thanks for always being there for me.”
“No problem. I ain’t going nowhere. Especially for you.”
It’s relieving that I know who my true friends are. I finally know the people who I can trust with my whole life and know they’re going to be there for me no matter what. Only the best of friends would listen to your shit on and on and not leave you but actually stick around to try to make you feel better ever though they know they have nothing wise to say. Only the best of friends would actually make an effort to ask as much forgiveness from you as they can get after doing something that made you feel bad. At the very same time, I want to be there for them as much as I can. Without them there’s nothing worth living for. They’re the ones who bring me up when I’m down. They motivate me to take a step forward and make me believe in myself. I love them. I love them all.
Kevin Woung
Bhawan
Markie
Tharaga
Mike Montalbo
Jonah Lawas
Mikhel & Mikhol Yap
Johaness
Credits to you all.
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Posted by babyk18 on 2007-06-27 19:03:52 | Rating: | Views: 157
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i relate the the "sunrise" post very much. i love watching the sunsets in the evening becuase they are absolutely beautiful. everyone one is a new beautiful creation that will never be seen again or never be recreated. i love the sunrise too, but i am usually not awake for them and miss out on most.
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Posted by jason
on 2007-06-28 06:03:27
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