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I want to be an artist

I can feel a strong creative flow running through my vains. My mom was an artist. An incredible artist. She used to be a goldsmith jewler, then a painter, then she dealt in fabrics, then gardening... all of which can as naturally to her as breathing to anyone else. I have always envied her ability to put down on canvas what she saw in her head. I have trouble doing that.

I see an image in my mind and want to get it out so badly. Then, if I try, it doesn't seem the same. I know I'm not a perfectionist. I am more of a go-with-it kind of girl. I may start with the image in my head, but as I'm drawing it will start to differ. So then I begin to emprivise. Perhaps that is where I am having trouble? Maybe I should be more strict with myself and stick to the image in my mind.

My favorite things to draw are abstract designs. Circles mostly. Sometimes swirls that change into something. Or an image like a car, but made from swirling lines so you don't really see the car at first. I like using black and white for that sort of project. Otherwise I generally choose hot colors; red, orange, lime, pink, yellow, black, blue...

I would absolutly LOVE to have my art shown in galleries. I would LOVE to sell my art. Imagine being able to paint all day, whatever you want, and earn enough money doing that so you don't have to have some bogus 9 to 5? That would be a dream come true I think.

Some ways I currently have of expressing myself are sewing blankets, designing purses, writing, and drawing (but not as much as I'd like). As for designing purses...That is more than a hobby. That is something I would like to do for a living. As well, I would like to be a writer. There are so many things I enjoy it's hard to focus on just one.
There are times where I wish I were one of those people that have "one thing". They are completely focused on one thing; being a doctor, racing cars, painting, hiking, music, and so on. These people have one thing that makes them tick. I wish I had that. I wish my thing was - - - I can't even decide. I would say writing, but there are times where drawing makes me much happier. Or designing purses, I love that too... this is my dilemma.

Maybe I am lucky to have so many intrests?