you should never start with apologizing, right? i will, because i guess its a nice thing to do. i dont mean to hurt your feelings native english speakers, i will do my best, but still im sure that im going to have lots of troubles with correct grammar, so sorry for that in advance. im writing enlgish altough im not from any english speaking country, bc i want to give it a chance  that people read what i write. I mean, if im in my country and no one cares about what i write, its totally normal, even if i write the most interesting things under the sun.. if all you english speaking guys dont care about what i write, it means its not interesting. or lets say its only interesting for me.

and actually heres already the reason why im writing. ive never read any blogs for more then one or two posts, so i dont really know how it works, but lets be adventourous and find it out. im pretty sure that a lot of people start with an explanation why they are there, so let me start with that too.

Im writing because i feel that i have such thoughts that could be interesting for others as well. I know already that in most cases what works for someone doesnt make any sense for someone else. I want to find out whether it is the case with my thoughts as well. I found happiness in my life through these thoughts, so if it does work for everyone, then ill be famous:) if they dont help anyone, then at least we tried. so, bottom line: if i made your life happy, please drop me a comment.

another thing: i started to ponder when i was 16, or even earlier. it would have been a nice idea to start the blog right then, but i didnt care about it at that time. I didnt even start writing a diary till 2 years ago. It would be nice to see all the process how i got here, but i hope its gonna be nice to see how the process goes from now on.  and lets hope the current thoughts that i have give you guys something valuable, without any history. so thats enough from the boring stuff, lets roll and lets see if its valuable for you what i have here.