It's funny how people get so used to something and then when they don't have it they completely freak out.

Or at least that's how I am when it comes to the internet. Thank God that some companies (other than AT&T) know how to install the proper things! We moved 3 weeks ago and we were supposed to have internet 2 weeks ago (or more) with AT&T and they never could figure it out. Those people are a bunch of ding-dongs! Time Warner Cable, thank you sooooo much for knowing how to pull your head out!

The reason I am addicted to the internet is simple: It's the simplest way for me to talk to my lovely husband while he's overseas in Iraq. I seriously have only talked him like twice in 3 weeks because of the damned internet issues we had here! I mean, one of my friend's talks to him more than I do and we're married! He calls his dad more than he calls me and I'm the one who's having a baby! Is that childish of me, to want my husband's attention? I just don't know...

A lot has happened since I posted last...I had my first ultrasound. I'm only 18 weeks (give or take a day or two) as of now and they weren't able to tell me if it was a boy or girl and they told me the results from my quad screen (maternal serum, which tests for genetic disorders like Down's and hormone defficiences which could affect the baby etc.) blood test. They were not good. My doctor told me that the baby is possibly at a high risk for Down's Syndrome. Now the possibly part is this: They want to re-do the maternal serum test because the result could have been caused by taking my blood too early. This is what I think; these doctors are retards! WHY in God's sweet name are they scaring me?!?!?! It is highly unlikely that at my young age I am going to have a child with Down's and even then. they should not have told me ANYTHING until they knew for sure! I have been going nuts, practically pulling my hair out and really the likelyhood of anything being wrong is kinda small. I mean, Down's Syndrome?! I'm 20 years old, not 40! I just refuse to believe it...period. When I go back for more testing if the second maternal serum test comes back positive for the risk of Down's they can do an ultrasound to see if they can see it. If not, I am not doing the amniocentesis! It's way too dangerous, the risk of miscarriage is kind of high and plus, if you can't see it in the face by then the chances of the baby having it are relatively low. Low enough for me to live with my decision at least.