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Im so sick of being treated like shit seriously i do alot for him and i thow my purse at him today not meaning to make the throw hard and he accuses me of hitting him and tells me if i wanna be with with him a have alot of begging to do...i mean seriously i honest to god dont think he loves me anymore..and i dont know what to do anymore im hurting inside so bad and he dont care or something cuz he sure as hell dont show it i cryed forever today and he didnt even care all he did was ignore my calls and hang up on me i cant take this anymore...seriously i refuse to wear my engagement ring and i dont wanna have kids with him i do but then i dont cuz how he treats me...i just dont know what too do anymore and another thing i was going upstairs to change and i had his phone which is originally mine and i went upstairs with it and he got all mad saying i need to keep his phone down stairs and my parents wont let me go anywhere unless i give them my phone i dont wanna go home i cnt take it there anymore...my parents dont give a shit about me i know it and i jsut dont wanna go home i honestly dont and i wanna cry so bad cuz i dont wanna go home and i dont know what too do i wanna talk too Nathaniel but he probaly doesnt care..right?