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okay. so i need some help and some other opinions :) thanks if you actually read this peice of shit lol
FYI this is a fairly massive rant....
so theres this guy right, who is one of my brothers best mates and hes one of those people that i like love/hate, if you understand what i mean
i like him because hes freakin hilarious and is a really cool guy to be around coz hes always such fun, has similar intrests to me and can be sooooo nice sometimes
but sometimes i think he is such a complete and utter WANKER and hes just really stuck up and annoying and you're just kind of like yehh shut the fuck up (yes my explanations of people are kind of shite but whatever)
mmk
he finished school last year with my bro - so ive known him for a fair while-
but when i knew him when he was at school and stuff i hated him because i just thought he was such a douchebag, but i kind of liked him because he was being a douche in a brotherly kind of way. it was seriously just like having another brother :| lol
yeh so after school finished he went into some army training course and he only ever comes back a couple of times a year
and this time was weird as
i dunno
coz somehow we ended up deciding that hes coming to the formal (i guess americans call it prom??) with me next year. he like invited himself but i cant even tell if he jokingly did it or what
and its weird because sometimes he makes really awkward comments coz we always play fight and make jokes about how ugly/fat each other is and then out of the blue he says something about how im beautiful
and im like
mmmk
so
next time i see him is a couple of days later
and all our families go to some place for a little get together and he comes home with us because my bro is havving a little shindig
and seriously the whole hour drive home he was either resting his head on my shoulder or punching me
wtf?
lol
and then he started kissing my ear and i was like woah okay considering we were in the car with my brother and my parents lol
and then he was like kissing my knee, or like nibbling my knee? hahah coz i have a tear in the knee of my jeans
and when we were play fighting he grabs me hand and locks our fingers. then back to punching again, and then he goes back to like laying on my shoulder and put his hand out like gesturing me to hold hands with him
and he like put his hand on my thigh and on my knee and starts like making invisible patterns on my skin
he just kept on touching me at all times. like he was always in contact with me
(yeh you're probably getting bored but whatever i doubt anyone is even reading this lol)
then we go to the supermarket to get food and the him and my bro wanna go buy some drinks (BEER lol)
and hes like oh are you getting out of the car? and im like mmmyeh whatever and hes all like ok if you are then i will. and hes all like yeh want me to teach you how to fight properly? so we're in the supermarket fighting lol twas funny
and then my bro comes back from wherever he was and hes like yeh lets go buy some drinks
and so he like randomly scoops me up and carrys mein his arms and alll these people are looking at us haha
and then my brothers just like dude put my sister down coz im like in hysterics all like IM GONNA FALL IM GONNA FALL
so yeh blah blah blah
they come back to the car
he bought me some 4 pack of bourban and cokes. i was just like ohhh! :D
but then i remembered from a while ago at some party when he was saying that he jsut wanted to get some girl drunk so he bought her drinks and i was just thinking to myself all like hmmmmm ive seen these moves before! :O lol
so we get back home
my bros friends get there
once again he scoops me up and carrys me over to chair where he puts me down
and one of my bros friends is just like why dont you just carry her to a bed already and i cant remember what he said exactly but from memory it was something like yeh i wanted to .... lol
yeh then he just sits on me and like lays across me like hes playing stacks on
and i somehow escape so he pins me down while im laying on my front on the ground and hes sitting there like pouring beer on my lower back. ----- once again brother like stuff haha
its confusing!
yeh. so i end up going up to my room after a while because i was feeling pretty sad coz once of my best friends was going to moving to singapore the next day and i wasnt going to see her for liek 2 years
and he comes up to my room and lays dwon next to me on my bed and is jsut like come downstairs
come and party with us
and im like but im tired. i wanna sleep
and hes like oh are you okay? and we end up having a nice talk and he convinces me to come back downstairs
i cant really remember that much more from then. he was like lying down next to me downstairs for a bit and was resting his head on me
then my bro got the fire outside going and so the others go out but im still sitting there and he stays with me
and he stays inside until i go
when we're outside we end up fighting again
he keeps getting me in headlocks and stuff
and so we have some burning stick war - i have the burns to prove it lol
and remembering this whole time he keeps asking me if i want another drink :|
and we're outside alone for a bit
so we talk
mainly about music and he was telling me about the army
and then we fight again lol
cant remember what else
lol
later everyone was jamming - coz they all play music and sing
and he came and sat down next to me on the floor
and was lying down with his head in my lap for ages and kept on leaning on me while he was singing and playing guitar
i dunno. he just kept on touching me and being close to me
by this time its like 3am so we all go to bed
and i wake up at i have no idea what time in the morning. maybe like 8am
and he creeps into my room and hops into my bed and sleeps there for a couple more hours
and when people wake up and come downstairs ie. my brother lol
i could he my brother whispering his name from the door but he doesnt respond so my brother just leaves. i couldnt tell if he was asleep or whether he was just pretending lol
and then my MUM! comes in and is like well well well arent you naughty. a guest waking up in the daughters bed. all joking of course because i think hes just kind of like another son to her
and hes like yehh i was cold so i came down here and shes all like why didnt you just get a blanket from the closet etc etc laughing to herself and being all like i dont think you came in here by accident or anything
then he goes all brotherly again and steals my doona
lol
and yeh
thats the end
so basically all night he was madly flirting with me - which my mother pointed out when we were in the car driving to the city the next day
and i think the others kind of noticed as well coz one of them said something about it
and my brother was being all weird and narky all night
BUT the bit i need help with now! lol
i cant seem to decide whether he was just being like that because he thinks hes a really hottie or something and thinks he can just make any girl weak at the knees, and just being a general tool
or whether he actually does kind of like me. perhaps
OR whether hes just lonely from being in some army training camp and liked being around someone that wasnt a guy for once
so do you think it sounds slightly genuine or what the hell??
i am extremelyyyyyy confused by the whole thing
considering he suddenly changes from like being really nice to me and flirty to being like another brother and making stupid 'your face' jokes lol
and i wont see him again for like
i dont even know
4 - 5 months??
maybe not until christmas i think...
ahh
how confusing boys are.
lol thats my rant
yeh this song kind of reminds me of this
LA ROUX - IM NOT YOUR TOY
Your love is like a stubborn youth
That you'd rather just deny
I'm walking on a broken roof
But I'm looking at the sky.
It's all false love and affection,
You don't want me, you just like the attention
Yes, it's all false love and affection,
You don't like me, you just want the attention.
I'm not your toy; this isn't another girl-meets-boy
I'm not your toy; this isn't another girl-meets-boy.
Your love hides in a smoky night,
I can never find the truth
Boy, your touches leave me mystified
I wish I could believe in you.
It's all false love and affection,
You don't want me, you just like the attention
Yes, it's all false love and affection,
You don't like me, you just want the attention.
I'm not your toy; this isn't another girl-meets-boy
I'm not your toy; this isn't another girl-meets-boy.
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Posted by arabesque on 2009-07-05 12:27:32 | Rating: | Views: 72
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