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bored to the extremity!
stole this quiz :) LAST PERSON YOU KISSED, KISSED YOU: some random surfy queenslander LOL he was fairrrrrrrrly hot DO YOUR JEANS HAVE RIPS,TEARS,AND HOLES IN THEM? yep. in the knee wearing them right now and no, i didnt buy them ripped. they're just REALLY old HAVE YOU......Read More

Posted on: 2009-06-08 06:01:48 | Rating:

| Views: 18 | Comments: 0 | Tags: quiz IM REALLY BORED

qui je suis?
je me sens...tres seule je ne connais pas qui je suis. ils pense que je suis heureuse ils ne voient pas mon douleur parce que je feins pour etre bien, mais je ne suis plus. je ne sais pas ce qui a fait ces sentiments se produire, lentement je me suis senti plus mauvais et plus mal ......Read More

Posted on: 2009-06-08 11:16:46 | Rating:

| Views: 59 | Comments: 5 | Tags: lonely depression hopeless

free like the ocean, wild in storm...
hmmm im feeling very melacholic at the moment ive been thinking alot about one of my best mates thats moving to singapore shes going away for a couple of years and today my therapist asked me about it and i couldnt hold back the tears. ive been trying not to think about it lately but god......Read More

Posted on: 2009-06-09 12:53:28 | Rating:

| Views: 39 | Comments: 0 | Tags: friends love depression sad my pathetic life

fuckin oath
i dont have a disease, i dont have a sickness. god damnit, you know what ive fucking realised??? i AM the sicknes im a disease my stupid bloody mind is its own virus, thats slowly eating away at itself leaving nothing behind except an empty cavernous space. creating a zombie like creature......Read More

Posted on: 2009-06-10 11:23:42 | Rating:

| Views: 42 | Comments: 0 | Tags: depression why do i bother medication

fuck love
argh a massive annoyance in my life right now (similary to most other teenage girls) is boys. fucking hell, gonna smash my head on a fucking wall i am! i think that i have a problem of always wanting what i cant have, but i dunno theres this guy that ive known for 5 years i think but ive......Read More

Posted on: 2009-06-15 10:04:03 | Rating:

| Views: 47 | Comments: 3 | Tags: love life boys depression rant

the cold, the dark and the silence
i havent been at school for the past two days. i feel like this medication isnt working anymore i dunno ive been crying more often, im way more angry and irritable and i feel dreamy again, like im not really even alive. i just feel like im walking through a dream. im feeling so hopeless......Read More

Posted on: 2009-06-16 11:23:57 | Rating:

| Views: 34 | Comments: 1 | Tags: depression suicide waves

if dreams were real, id be dead
so here i sit again completely swallowed by my stupid self pity and stupid selfishness i dont know what to write im kind of tired. and i feel kind of sick. and im feeling sad guess what though? two of my friends now know that i cut myself. and also drum roll that ive tried to......Read More