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if i had a voice i would sing
ergh the blog is a load of bullshit. i think that i am a very jealous person. I find myself CONSTANTLY envying other people and their lives. It is insane how petty some of the things are though. I am the biggest bitch. If my friends knew what i was like on the inside they would leave me. I......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-05 12:12:41 | Rating:

| Views: 158 | Comments: 2 | Tags: depression self image jealously cutting

3:30AM
im supposed to be alseep right now..but arent i always supposed to be asleep whenever im posting blogs! Blogs are my late night/early morning stress releif! ergghh...i dunno what to write..i had the feeling that i needed to write, but i don't really know what to say. I've been pretty good......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-10 13:31:12 | Rating:

| Views: 77 | Comments: 6 | Tags: depression friends suicide

is it possible
tell me, do you think that its possible to know someone without ever actually meeting them? is it possible to love someone without meeting them? i have this friend (who is actually one of my best friends cousins..) ive been talking to him for ages (over msn). i dunno maybe, 3-4 years? and i......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-13 12:12:04 | Rating:

| Views: 48 | Comments: 2 | Tags: love life friends confusion rambling

all that could have been
what is wrong with me? i am slowly becoming more insane as the days go by. i am going crazy im being put on anti depressants now. i get the first lot on friday i think. next time i go to the doctors anyway i had a dream the other night that included a nonexistant......Read More

Posted on: 2009-05-18 11:25:17 | Rating:

| Views: 65 | Comments: 3 | Tags: depression suicide dreams crazy NIN

in my grasp?
i havn't written that much lately, dont really know why. maybe ive been better? maybe ive been worse? who knows im on antidepressants now, im still not sure if they're actually working. its just really weird i feel much more hyperactive and im louder and more obnoxious, but i havnt actually......Read More