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Pointless
Sometimes i just wish i could tell you the things that i write on this website. I wish that i could just print out all of the 40 or so blogs that ive posted here and give them to you to read. You wouldnt see it coming would you. You seems to think that you're the only fucking person on......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-03 03:44:37 | Rating:

| Views: 66 | Comments: 3 | Tags: depression friends self harm cutting

rainbows turn to grey
i can't even think straight right now. I don't understand. Everything is like a big dream, nothing seems real to me. Its like i cant see probably. but i dunno, not really I feel kind of drunk but without the happiness or the clumsyness, just that weird sense of everything being kind of......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-05 06:52:34 | Rating:

| Views: 38 | Comments: 2 | Tags: depression friends lonely

Accepting Me
So fucking fragile. Thats how i feel right now. My eyes basicaily hurt from trying not to cry i will never fit in. Well thats the way it seems anyway.Wherever i go i am never going to fit in or find anyone that actually appreciates me for who i am. I havent even moved or anything,......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-12 05:25:07 | Rating:

| Views: 57 | Comments: 1 | Tags: depression lonliness friends acceptance suicide

living dead
i am feeling very mellow. Im just so confused that i can't really be bothered thinking. Its like my body has naturally created some kind of tranquilizer or something. I feel kind of shit right now though. Yeh, you got it, still trouble with friends. Its like my friends keep on changing groups......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-19 04:04:42 | Rating:

| Views: 32 | Comments: 1 | Tags: depression friends lonely and a gay little poem just for kicks

Are Those Halos in Your Hair?
FUCKING POINTLESS RANT SHIT im feeling kind of pissed. Well, not really piseed, more let down. Its so annoying because i feel like i am always being left behind by people. It sucks so much coz tomorrow night friends are going up to the city to go clubbing, but i cant go with them because i......Read More