| View Blog
|
|
|
|
| Accepting Me |
So fucking fragile. Thats how i feel right now. My eyes basicaily hurt from trying not to cry
i will never fit in. Well thats the way it seems anyway.Wherever i go i am never going to fit in or find anyone that actually appreciates me for who i am.
I havent even moved or anything, ive been going to this school for fucking 5 years, and in these 5 years i have become the most boring useless form on this earth.
i have no friends, no one even knows who i am
i am just like some kind of shadow
its not even that m invisible and small, im really tall and lanky, they can see me
its just more whether they choose to see me or not
i wish i could speak up and say something for once
i feel like my confidence and self worth break in two everyday
Dont you hate it when theres a party and it seems like you're he only person not invited.
i dont think its that they hate me. its just more the fact that they have absoloutely no idea i even exist
there is not one person that would care whether i died today and i wish that i could
if only it were that easy. if only i could just wish myself to die
i just want to kill myself right now...
i feel so fucking ugly and unwanted though
i just wish that people like me could be accepted for once instead of just having to hang around like some kind of outsider. but i guess i am an outsider
im not one of those fucking annoying people thats all like 'errr im so different look at me throwing all your conformity back at you' kind of shit
i hate those people, everyone hates those people. there freaking deserve to be hated
i just dont like how i am 'normal' and i seem to be treated like some kind of ghost
i dont think this blog is making any sense
my point is basically just that i hate having to be so unappreciated and unoticed by everyone
its just that type of thing that makes me feel like doing something with my life and suceeding in something just so i can be like yeh hows THAT! suck it!
funny. the only thing that i actually aim toward in life is doing something to prove myself to people that i wont even know in 5 years....
stupid me
The waves push me further down
Breaking legs breaking frowns
Water in my throat prevents any sound
Ocean just begging me to drown
|
|
Posted by arabesque on 2009-10-12 05:25:07 | Rating: | Views: 54
|
|
| |
|
|
Email This to a Friend 