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A Heavy Heart Leads To a Watery Grave Explicit Content
Everything just seems to have gone to XXXXX at the moment. i dunno exactly what. and i dont know why. i'm basically finished this year of school so i dunno. i have just felt kind of XXXXX lately. i hav ent taken any medication for like 3 months now and i dont think ive cut for 2 months.......Read More

Posted on: 2009-11-15 05:22:46 | Rating:

| Views: 8 | Comments: 0 | Tags: depression friends lonely body image life

Are Those Halos in Your Hair? Explicit Content
XXXXX POINTLESS RANT XXXXX im feeling kind of pissed. Well, not really piseed, more let down. Its so annoying because i feel like i am always being left behind by people. It sucks so much coz tomorr ow night friends are going up to the city to go clubbing, but i cant go with them because i......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-30 09:03:29 | Rating:

| Views: 29 | Comments: 2 | Tags: rant depression self friends life jealousy

living dead Explicit Content
i am feeling very mellow. Im just so confused that i can't really be bothered thinking. Its like my body has naturally created some kind of tranquilizer or something. I feel kind of XXXXX right now though. Yeh, you got it, still trouble with friends. Its like my friends keep on changing......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-19 04:04:42 | Rating:

| Views: 32 | Comments: 1 | Tags: depression friends lonely and a gay little poem just for kicks

Accepting Me Explicit Content
So XXXXX fragile. Thats how i feel right now. My eyes basicaily hurt from trying not to cry i will never fit in. Well thats the way it seems anyway.Wherever i go i am never going to fit in or find anyone t hat actually appreciates me for who i am. I havent even moved or anything,......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-12 05:25:07 | Rating:

| Views: 56 | Comments: 1 | Tags: depression lonliness friends acceptance suicide

rainbows turn to grey
i can't even think straight right now. I don't understand. Everything is like a big dream, nothing seems real to me. Its like i cant see probably. but i dunno, not really I feel kind of drunk but without the happiness or the clumsyness, just that weird sense of everything being kind of......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-05 06:52:34 | Rating:

| Views: 38 | Comments: 2 | Tags: depression friends lonely

Pointless Explicit Content
Sometimes i just wish i could tell you the things that i write on this website. I wish that i could just print out all of the 40 or so blogs that ive posted here and give them to you to read. You wouldnt see it com ing would you. You seems to think that you're the only XXXXX person on......Read More

Posted on: 2009-10-03 03:44:37 | Rating:

| Views: 66 | Comments: 3 | Tags: depression friends self harm cutting

hm Explicit Content
She doesn't know herself anymore Her weak body is just a shell Encasing her screaming soul Can it be soothed? We can only hope The black shadows under her eyes Make her look like she's already dead And she basically is Dead inside Body on autopilot She wishes she had the......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-19 05:52:47 | Rating:

| Views: 39 | Comments: 2 | Tags: lame poem depression yeh i know depressing poems are just...

Long time no see Explicit Content
So i haven't really written on here in a while. i've just been so XXXXX busy with my school art stuff. Actually i post some of the pictures of it on here sometime soon. I reckon you'll appreciate them :) lol So. I have actually been pretty good lately. I dunno why. Maybe because school is......Read More

Posted on: 2009-09-16 08:54:59 | Rating:

| Views: 24 | Comments: 0 | Tags: depression gigs parkway drive guys BORED spring

Sytems Failing Explicit Content
Not sure what to write.My mind is kind of dead right now. Can' t seem to think. Why the XXXXX to have this thing? This blog that is It really only just occurred to me. Because i know i didn't come here in the firs t place with the intention of making friends and stuff, i came here......Read More

Posted on: 2009-08-25 12:14:29 | Rating:

| Views: 33 | Comments: 2 | Tags: blogging depression life failure friends

XXXXX Human Race Scum Explicit Content
I XXXXX HATE PEOPLE! I seriously cannot even be bothered anymore. I give up on them! Friends for instance? Fuckwits. The lot of them. It is so XXXXX at the moment. I feel like i have no friends at a ll. All because of this stupid motherfucking XXXXX that came to our school at the end of......Read More