I have often wanted a freind that i could trust with my secrets, that wouldnt judge me or be critical, more critical than i am of myself. Perhaps the reason for this blog is to help me to sort out what it is that is happening, the things i dont understand or can make sense of. I have found that if i can tell someone my problem and i can attempt to make them understand, i solve the problem pretty quickly, and that is what im attempting to accomplish by this blog.