These sessions now took place almost exclusively in the daytime because at night, even having all the lights on in the house did not seem to be enough. He was so very, very dark and what he said was utterly revolting. After breakfast each day I lit the candles and we resumed our discussion.
“What do you want to know today?” he asked as he put aside his newspaper.
“I want you to tell me exactly what you mean by being possessed by an evil spirit?” I asked.
“Oh I didn’t say that!” he exclaimed and sat up with a start.
“Didn’t you say..” he cut me short.
“I said I was possessed of an evil spirit, as in being in the possession of something” he corrected me and was rather indignant about my error because he said, “in ’being possessed by’ something it is a vastly different thing”.
“Okay, sorry, my mistake” I said wanting to get on with the discussion. “Seeing you say it is something you possess then let’s define some terms. What exactly do you mean by an evil spirit?” I asked.
“Well as you know I’m an atheist, I don’t believe in spirits!” he said and laughed.
“So how come you are talking about spirits” I challenged him.
“My spirit” he said “is who I am, all the thoughts and thinking processes that make me, me.”
“So by an evil spirit you mean an evil mind” I suggested.
“Yes” he agreed.
“And by evil you mean corrupt.”
“Right again” he added with superiority, as if he was still the university lecturer instructing a student.
“So really what you mean by the term ‘possessed of an evil spirit’ is to have a mind that is corrupt.”
“That’s it!” he replied “now you got it right! Being possessed of an evil spirit is being possessed of a corrupt mind or having a corrupt mind, a mind full of evil ideas. Are we straight now? Do you understand?” He sounded proud of having a corrupt mind, as if it was a boon. To me it sounded so unreal, so disgusting. Who wants a mind full of evil ideas? I shunned what he said, it was dark. And I looked to draw solace from the light of the glittering candles, which I had surrounding me.
“When did you become interested in having a corrupt mind?” I asked after some time passed.
““At the age of around 10 or 12 years old I became interested in the evil spirit” he began.
“At such a young age you become interested in having a corrupt mind?” I asked for I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.
“Yes! At about the age of 12, I started to kill birds for the sheer pleasure of seeing them die. One could always claim that killing the birds was necessary to protect the fruit on the trees on the farm. The same treatment was applied to snakes. The Indiscriminate killing of birds and snakes virtually disappeared from the age of about 20 to 24 years of age” he said and added that “the possession of evil ideas or gaining of evil ideas was gradual”. And he went on without prompting. “Possession is the gradual taking over of an individual’s thinking procedures in the first instance” he said as if he were continuing to lecture me but cryptically.
“What do you mean ‘taking over of thinking procedures’?
“Good thoughts are replaced by bad” was his immediate and simple answer.
So you mean that over time you began to have ideas about how to do harm to animals? Is that what you mean?”
“Right” he echoed “At first it was animals and then gradually more and more it led to humans. I lit two more candles wondering what I was doing there. I would have preferred to be anywhere else in the world but there. But I felt the desire to find out everything there was to know burning within me far brighter than the multitude of candles affixed to the chairs, one on either side of me, and the table that stood between myself and my husband.
“Tell me what procedures you are talking about? I asked “because I still don’t understand what you mean. Are they what makes a person’s mind become corrupt?
“No” he replied the procedures are just the tools. Becoming corrupt is all about becoming attracted to the procedures” he explained. “The procedures are finally the steps or the rules of the body or group of like-minded people. There is a fair degree of flexibility and much is left to the individual.” He replied. “Evil ones have..” I cut him short.
“By evil ones you mean evil people”
“Yesssss” he hissed, evil people there you are if that makes you happy. Now what was I saying. Oh evil people develop ways of affecting innocent people to make them pay”. Again he hissed but he was answering my next question. “All the different ways of giving someone ‘the treatment’ are the procedures.” He appeared to be going against the grain in revealing this information. And he continued in staccato tones. “Like-minded people” he said “exchange ideas with other like-minded ones.”
“So by procedures you mean finding ways to harm other people?” I asked again.
“Yes” he replied, emphatically. I realized this was just another euphemism.
“So you’re saying that evil people readily and freely accept and entertain harmful ideas and are prepared to act upon those harmful ideas to harm other people.”
“Yes” he hissed.
“Why would anyone want to do that?” I asked, “for surely that goes against nature”.
“I’m not talking about anyone” he howled. “Whose nature? He growled. “Your nature and people like you? I told you” he said aggressively “it gives the evil ones joy, they thrive on it. It is natural for the evil ones, our way of life.”
“And by ‘it’ you mean the harming of other people!”
“Yes” he hissed “we give them the treatment or whatever you want to call it. Doing harm to innocent targets to get a kick is always on the menu but”, he said then added as an afterthought “it can also be done to gain power and influence”.
“You don’t have any conscience about it?” I found it hard to comprehend his callousness.
“I had to use deceit” he said his tone changing dramatically. “I had to use deceit in order to survive” he spoke desperately, but then his tone lifted and he sounded haughty again. “In any case” he said “I don’t need to accept responsibility when I can easily get others to agree that I am not responsible. I can step back from what happens.”
“So you are trying to say that you are not responsible for your actions, as in being insane? I don’t think…” he cut me off again.
“No” he hissed even louder. “Insanity is when a person is not responsible for their actions because they don’t know what they are doing -they’re not in control. I’m not saying that. An evil one knows full well what they do. They act willfully and they are in full control of what they do at all times.
“So you acknowledge that you are fully responsible for your actions” I said
“Yes I am responsible for my actions. That is what I said earlier. But I can shirk off any responsibility for the action. It’s a mind game that an evil one plays on the innocent target and you good people. It’s a way of getting permission…” he stopped for a moment and turned his gaze away. Then after a short while he said “they can’t pin you down if they have already accepted in their mind that you are not responsible for something that happens.” he said.
“Something that happens” I said loudly. “What, you pretend you’re insane!”
“No” he said and glared at me. “I don’t pretend I’m insane and I am not insane. I know what I’m doing” he stated bluntly. Then he said. “If good people can be persuaded to believe that you are not responsible for what happened then they won’t blame you. You don’t claim madness unless you have to, to get off. You can get off though because you can get other people to find a reason that doesn’t involve you.” He moved his lower lip upward over his upper lip and his eyes were searching mine.
“Don’t look at me to let you off. I see you and I see you are responsible for what is happening… but let’s put it in real terms ‘for what you are doing to make something happen, i.e., the presence of criminals around all the time” I told him firmly.
“That’s true” he said, though unwilling to admit it. “I am responsible. I don’t want to do these things anymore. I want to reform.” The hardness in his eyes had for a moment lifted somewhat, but it was not for long. How much, I wondered was he capable of reform? He would not hear of calling off any of the threats he was making! However he was also pitiable in the desperate measures he was taking to try and stop me from leaving.
“Speaking of reform” I said “you would have to give up trying to get power and influence over other people all the time! Why do you do that? Can you admit it?” He gave me a menacing look but he did reply.
“To help ‘solve problems’” he said. Then after a short silence he added “I didn’t want you to find work. That was a problem so I arranged for you to start experiencing problems with your health so that you couldn’t go out and find work and then leave me”.
“Finding work did not equal leaving you back then.”
“That’s what you’re saying” he said.
“I don’t want to get into an argument, it was just a comment. But what I do want to know is what makes you think you could make problems for my health.
“You had problems with your health” he resounded, “bad problems”.
“I did have problems with my health and my heart specifically, but what makes you think you caused them?”
“I was responsible for the heart problems but you also had diabetes and cancer earlier on. These are also caused” he said cryptically. He looked sincere in what he was saying, even though it was horrible. However all of it sounded far-fetched to my ears. I could not imagine how someone else could be involved in any of it but I wondered what he had in mind.
“Let’s just for argument’s sake say you were responsible for the heart disease” I said “how?” How could you make me get heart disease? How could it be done? It doesn’t make sense for god’s sake.” I was resisting the idea strongly. And I sure was not expecting to get any sensible answer.
“Certain conditions are required” he began.
“What conditions?”
“Well first you need to know the target and be close to them”.
“You mean to be in a relationship of some sort with them?”
“Yes. Without that nothing can be done” he said. “If the evil one is a relative or already a friend then it is easy because the connection is already there. You only need to keep doing things to keep getting the person’s trust. If you are not related to the target and you want to stand back from the action then you get one or two evil ones to befriend the target. Evil ones as I told you use procedures. One procedure helps the evil ones to get the target to trust them and to become a close friend once the target trusts them…”
“Woo woo woo stop there a minute what sort of procedure gets you trust?” I laughed but his explanation was chilling.
“You arrange to make them anxious. A meeting is arranged somewhere and when you arrive at the meeting place, you have their anxiety vanish. That way they get a good feeling associated with your arrival.” I started laughing again but he never lost his composure, he only grinned.
“How on earth can you make a person anxious, and before you arrive? Do you say something to them on their mobile phone or something?”
“No” he resounded and then remarked “you don’t know anything about the procedures.”
“Tell me then” I demanded, still not expecting to hear anything sensible.
“First, you introduce the target to the crims?”
“Introduce them?”
“Not in the way you’re thinking” he replied. “You have to take the target somewhere where they can see one or more of the crims” he said and gazed at me with eyes of black glass.
“Go on” I said, looking back at him in disbelief.
“The evil one” he began, grinning all the while, “gets the target to go out somewhere with them. They may go for a coffee in a coffee shop or go shopping together. It has to be something ordinary because a normal approach is always used by evil ones.”
“I see” I said and again prompted him to continue.
“A busy public place is good because there are lots of other people around so the crims are just people in the crowd.”
“well if there are lots of people around and the crims blend in, then how is the person going to see just the people you want them to see, or doesn’t that matter?”
“Oh it matters” he responded immediately. “A minor incident is created so that the target’s attention is drawn to the crims. The crims may be other evil people” he said “or they may just be common criminals who have done time for something, murder, armed robbery, rape.” He then added “the incident is minor; minor” he stressed, tapping his index fingers on the table authoritatively “is the operative word”. “One just wants the target’s attention. One doesn’t want the target to remember them and recognize them later.”
“You don’t want the person to remember them later?”
“The target must be able to be aware of the crims without realizing it” he said.
“Unconsciously?” I suggested.
“Yes” he replied, “I suppose you can call it that” and shrugged his shoulders.
“Go on... then what?”
“Once introduced the evil one can then use those crims to stress the target, make them anxious.”
“So how is that done?”
“The evil one waits a few days and then makes another arrangement to meet the target somewhere. Or another way is if they have offered any information as to their movements. If this method is used then that information must be gathered by other the evil ones, who you may know but the target doesn’t know you know them, only then it’s safe to use it. For instance the target may have revealed that they are going to Myers to buy a new dress. That information can then be passed on to you, so you know when and where to find the target. It is important not to arouse the target’s suspicion.” He paused, grinned then puckered his lips. “In this latter method when the evil one goes to meet the target it must look like pure chance” he said and laughed.
“Go on” I continued to prompt him, even though I felt disgusted.
“First the crims are given the information and find the target and hang around in the vicinity of the target but they do not approach the target nor do they do anything obvious. If the evil one only wants the target a little anxious then the crims can be told to just hang about talking among themselves about the target, talking about maybe doing something. That is usually enough to make the target anxious but as the crims dress well and they don’t act strange and blend into the crowd they are not noticed. It becomes very confusing for the target because they feel something is wrong, but when they look around they can’t see anything wrong. It can be a real blow to their self-confidence.” He grinned with delight. I tried to keep my attention on his words.
“You’re saying that the person unconsciously knows the criminals are near them because they have seen them before but don’t realize it. And further to that they unconsciously know that the criminals are talking about maybe doing them harm… possibly” I ask not really wanting to believe that not only can a person unconsciously know something like that, but that such things could be thought of and done to another person.
“It only works if the target has seen the crims previously” he said “and they don’t become obvious”.
“That’s sick” I exclaimed in shock even though I was still resistant to the idea. He looked at me contemptuously and told me I was just naïve like most good people and that the world was not a nice place and went on.
“The crims move on and leave the area, as they have been instructed to do, as soon as they see the evil one arrive or they may be given an instruction by mobile phone to get a move on because the evil one is there somewhere and ready to approach the target. With the crims gone the target feels good again, but they attribute it to the arrival of the evil one, whom of course they think is their friend.” He grinned and continued. “So an association can be built in the target between feeling good and the appearance or presence of the evil one. This is a good way to manufacture trust but you can also use a modification of this procedure to manufacture other things too, such as consent for something… conformity and other things.” I stared at him for a while not knowing what to say. After a short silence he continued. “Once the target trusts the evil one, they are likely to confide in them and that gives the evil one a lot of information, such as where and when they plan to go somewhere and what they plan to do for instance, or they may tell you their fears or their aspirations, their plans for the future and so on. All this is useful information. It can be used, it’s the ammunition one needs to do evil work.” I started to feel very angry.
“So you arranged for me to have seen these characters, who are outside at night? You arranged for them to know me?” He grinned as he admitted it. He told me that I had seen them in the city and specifically when we were at the herbalist. He said that they were on the opposite side of the road. I did not remember it at first but then I realized there were a few occasions when I saw some men on the opposite side of the road. I remembered because at the time I felt uneasy by their presence and had pointed them out to him. He had told me that I was over reacting and that they were ‘just people in the street’.
“Yes I remember” I said.
“You were too suspicious but you accepted my put off”. Unfortunately I had trusted him.

That day I went over this material, over and over, even though it made me angry every time I thought about it. What he had told me sounded surreal but at the same time I realized there was at least one piece of evidence that made me unable to let it go. Since the threat to my life was made openly, I had found the cause of anxiety I felt from time to time, especially very late at night. At those times I had gotten out of bed and gone to my window. Each time I saw one or two particular cars parked in the street. And I knew that they did not belong to neighbors. At that time on the one side there was an empty house and on the other a vacant block of land. Opposite there were also two vacant blocks of land. The two houses that were occupied very rarely had any guests that parked their cars near my house or in my vicinity. One of those cars was bright red and the other yellow. But it was not only the cars that I saw. On many occasions I had heard the cars arrive and looked out to see two men emerge. Rarely did they hang around on the footpath. Mostly they went into the vacant block next door and on three occasions I saw one of them go up the driveway to the empty house. I began to look down routinely several times a night, night after night and I found that only at the times that I felt some anxiety did I see the cars and the men in the street. On times that I did not feel anxiety I never saw them. And that anxiety did not occur after I’d seen the cars but before! In fact when I felt the first inklings of anxiety I got out of bed or off my meditation cushion, and went to the window and consistently I found that on those occasions I got a glimpse of the men.

There was another piece of evidence in my husband’s experience. I had unwittingly conducted an experiment that day, which bore results. Many afternoons I made a recording of the things that were said that day, because he did not write everything he said down in the exercise book I had provided for him. That day Pussinella my cats, jumped up onto my desk, as was her practice and rolled over wanting me to pat her, which I did. However as there was a lot to record I continued to speak into the microphone. I was quite angry for the deceit he had admitted that day, in making me known to the criminals that were now harassing me. I was speaking angrily and to try and calm down I turned the recording into a conversation with my cat. I sounded off about my husband and repeatedly said I would get evidence and take it to the police, which I did intend to do. I wanted the police to catch the people he had turning up outside so I could leave safely. After half an hour I turned off the tape recorder and settled down at the computer to write. Not more than twenty minutes would have passed when my husband opened my door and came at me in a huff.
“Who were you talking to?” He demanded to know. I was taken aback.
“I didn’t talk to anyone I told him.”
“You told someone about me?” He insisted. I told him no, he was mistaken, for not even for a moment had I considered the recording and the mock conversation with my cat. A few nights later this incident came to my mind and I had puzzled over his reaction. Then I remembered my cat and the mock conversation. I wondered could it be possible that he could have detected it. In the coming days I repeated the experiment deliberately. However I was not angry and even if I tried to sound angry I obviously had no effect because he made no more complaints. Indeed I had been recording the conversations from the very first day and he had not complained or detected anything. A week later I was again feeling angry about something he had done and as the first mock conversation with my cat had helped me diffuse the anger, I did the same again. However this time I had a lot of work to do, so I did not have the conversation until late that night. As I had the whole day to think about it so by the time I got round to recording, I was quite angry. So this time I did the exercise deliberately and more intensely and as an experiment because I was curious about the previous occasion. He was in his room watching television and I kept a watch of the corridor through the use of a mirror. I never saw him come out of his room. I was satisfied he could not have heard anything. However the next day he confronted me again and demanded to know who I spoke to. This time he was angry and he was carrying the long wooden handled clothes brush and threatened to bash me with it if I didn’t tell him, to whom I had spoken about him. I was forced to reveal to him the experiment-mock conversation that I had done in order to calm him down. Only on the two occasions when I was actually angry did he detect anything and on both occasions as I realized later I had talked about getting evidence for the police.

Another, third piece of evidence came and this time from science. One night not too long after the discussion about creating anxiety, I was hunting through my tapes to find an old Greek movie I had recorded from television to watch. It was a ten hour extended play cassette tape, on which I had a lot of stuff, including some documentaries. It was one of those documentaries that I chanced upon, as I was fast forwarding through the tape to find the movie. The documentary was about human perception. It pricked my curiosity so I watched it and with renewed interest. There were many aspects it talked about such as esp and intuition, all were scoffed at by ‘orthodox’ scientific thought. However one aspect, although not without its critics, nonetheless was considered indisputably real. This is called precognition. This phenomenon, as several scientists on the documentary stated, was the easiest to prove in the laboratory. And while the results were indisputable, there was a lot of criticism about what the results meant. Some wanted to write off the results as spurious but the results were real and reproducible. In precognition experiments a subject is seated before a computer screen asked to observe a wide variety of images that are randomly selected by the computer and displayed on its screen. The subject is wired up so that his or her vital signs can be measured. It is found that when a computer randomly selects a distressing image AND JUST PRIOR to seeing the distressing image, the subject’s vital signs show symptoms of distress. These symptoms significantly increase once the distressing image is displayed on the screen and viewed by the subject. How can a subject know what they are ABOUT TO SEE? Some scientists were claiming that we may have some extraordinary evolutionary trait to help us predict the future. I’m afraid I found that explanation far-fetched. For one thing that would mean that we live in a deterministic universe and we can see conclusive evidence from modern physics that most definitely we do not live in a deterministic universe! However even from an ethical point of view it is does not make sense because if the future was all pre-determined, we cannot be responsible for anything. Why punish a criminal if the crime is pre-determined and they are only ‘a machine pre-programmed to do the deed’? It’s garbage! Other scientists were challenging the person’s ability to know. They were saying that the brain waves or energy produced in the brain was too weak. So by the time it passes out of the skull it was nearly zero so cannot detect anything in the computer. Quite so! But whether it is understood or not, the person does know, the results are real. I realized then that scientists, the majority of whom are atheists, are looking strictly at material solutions.

Medical science, in an effort to study the body, as also to eliminate complexity from experimental procedures, considers the human being to literally be a machine. Sensory perception is accepted as the only valid form of human perception, because it is consistent with the machine model. Indeed even emotions are written off as by-products of neural activity in the brain. Star trek’s Dr Spock it seems is the medico’s ideal man! Over many experiments it has been found that no soul or any non-physical substance is needed to make the body function. So the conclusion has been drawn that there is ‘no ghost in the machine’. However the important thing here is that while the body can function without any soul, this view does not address the appearance of thoughts nor our reactions to those thoughts, which are none other than our emotions. And our emotions sure change the way the body functions! I thought the scientific view is not complete. If we take as an analogy say a car, it can function without a driver. However if that car is to go somewhere, then it needs a driver; So too the body can function without some driving force but that does not exclude the existence of a driving force. We can think of this driving force as the mind. And the evidence points to a mind that is non-material. For, to know if a computer is about to display a distressing image on a screen or to know if someone else is threatening to do something that would have consequences for you, really implies that we are all somehow privy to the same information and that we can obtain that information without sensory means of detection. So whatever the mind is, it cannot be the brain and/or the brain’s functionality or somehow arising out of neural activity as the medicos are assuming. There is no evidence for what they are supposing anyway. They have not found the mind in the brain. However it is possible to prove scientifically and conclusively that a person can know something even though they have no sensory information. And that furthermore the conditions that are necessary, are firstly relationship. Secondly the person seeking to do harm needs to have real means or the ability to act and thirdly they need to hold real ill or undesirable intent. This proof is critical as it shows that insightful perception is a natural and healthy form of perception that we are all born with and we should have the benefit of using it, without shame. Instead it is being treated as a symptom of ‘mental illness’ by the medical profession and a great deal of money is made drugging people for what is a natural and healthy ability. When a person insightfully perceives danger, then the person will display strong emotional reactions and they most certainly affect how the body functions. This was the first piece of information that explained how a person can be affected and seriously affected from a distance! In the following discussion I was to learn how this simple means can be turned into a potent force, not merely to give someone a serious scare and make them panic, but far more seriously to affect a person’s heart, even enough to kill them. I was to discover how a healthy heart can be made to suffer a heart attack!