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Its been three days now and he hasnt called. Not once. You'd think he'd call right? You're wrong. He didnt. I mean three days!!!! Thats like 72 hours!! Doesnt he miss me? Not even a wee-lil bit?? I am not going to beg him for importance. I deserve it...(the importance, i mean..not this kind of treatment)

Any guy would consider himself lucky to have me...and not just have me, but have me so madly in love with him. So technically, he should have been thanking his stars right now..ALL his stars...and he still doesnt call....

I know why. Its because he knows I love him so much that Im not going anywhere. He thinks I love him too much to leave. That I cant do without him. Hes wrong. He might be right about me not being able to do without him, but hes wrong about me never leaving. Because i CAN and WILL leave if this kind of thing continues. I mean, i have my own dignity. Just because he knows I love him doesnt mean that he can take me for granted this way.

Its so weird how we let someone just take over our mind and rule our lives this way. I mean, we actually hand them our heart on a platter...and they dont even care. It doesnt even matter to them. You know why? Because they got it so easy.

I just checked my phone again, and he HASNT called. What am I doing? I can understand, his family is with him and everything, but how long does ONE phone call take? Or just a short one to say WHY you cant or wont be calling? He doesnt realise right now that there are guys who will more than willingly give me all that im asking for. I mean which guy wouldnt give me TIME? Its not like I am asking for diamonds!

I checked my phone again and he hasnt called. WHY?? Why me?? Is it because he knows that I love him this much that he's taking me for granted? Should I distance myself from him? Should i make him realise how his life would be hell without me? Maybe I will...maybe I wont call him either now....

I'll do that...I wont call...for 2 weeks....ok 1 week........ok realistically...i wont call for the next 3 days.
I dont know how i got into such a loser-type position. Damn. I need to get back my dignity. I mean let him do what he likes. I dont care.

Yeah right.

PS- did you know elephants are the only animals that cannot jump? hehehe...imagine an elephant jumping ;)

Any advice, help, comments are MORE than welcome...advice for me, not the elephant.

Posted by angelwings on 2008-03-21 05:48:12 | Rating: n/a | Views: 181


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Posted by
Meredith
on 2008-03-21 10:51:31
 
Angelwings - I feel your pain. I have been there - when my life seems to revolve around the next phone call (or even email) from a guy. You need to keep yourself busy doing the things that YOU enjoy and try to stop focusing so much energy on when he will call. He WILL but you can't control when just by wanting it so much. And, you are right, he probably DOES know you aren't going anywhere and might be taking you for granted. Keep yourself busy so perhaps when he does call, you will be too busy to pick up the phone. THAT will make him nervous!
 
 

Posted by
angelwings
on 2008-03-21 11:13:56
 
Thank you so, so much meredith...you have no idea how comforting your comment has been...thanks a ton..it really means a lot..and yeah maybe i will be busy when he calls...that'll be nice ;)
 
 

Posted by
Meredith
on 2008-03-21 13:21:07
 
Glad I could help - good luck!
 
 

Posted by
ColoradoDreamin
on 2008-03-21 16:47:38
 
"No one can make you feel inferior without your consent".

Eleanor Roosevelt

First off, darling, respect yourself. Just because you have given your heart to someone doesn't mean you can't take it back. In all my relationships I have a little saying I abide to .... "I want you to want me." If someone doesn't have time for me or is not treating me with respect and dignity, then it's time to move on and find someone who will. There are many fish in the sea. Or as a friend of mine says ... "men are likes buses, a new one comes along every 10 minutes." We have no control over the actions of another ... the only thing we can control is our response to those actions. You are young, with a beautiful spirit ... you have your whole life ahead of you. Instead of staying home staring at the phone get out there. Join a club, take a class, get involved in an organization that helps the less fortunate. It's a great place to meet others who possess giving kind spirits plus helping others makes you feel good and takes your mind off your problems. You have so much love to give ... don't waste your time on someone who can't or won't return your feelings of love. Peace.
 
 

Posted by
angelwings
on 2008-03-22 05:25:12
 
coloradodreamin, your comment has made me feel really good about myself...i cant thank you enough for that..i felt as if i was losing my dignity..i mean i know i deserve so much more...I just needed to hear it from someone else too..its really good to have people understand me when i put my feelings out there...thanks a ton...u really helped :)
 
 

Posted by
Long
on 2008-03-23 04:00:05
 
PS- did you know elephants are the only animals that cannot jump?
Yup I did, they are also the only animal with 4 knees.

Ahhh angel time is extremely subjexctive, and checking the phone constantly aint gonna help. Relax a little have a drink, some chocolate, put on a chick-flick with some hot guy in it for a distraction and get on with YOUR Life and stop letting some huy disctate it for your, we're not worth it.
Yes many a guy who's 'not that into you' and knows you *LOVE* him will take advatange of the situation.
Of course this is comming from a guy who's falling for his female best friend who just started a relationship with a new guy, so I don't know how much value my opinion is, then again I at least know it's not me she'll be calling.
 
 

Posted by
angelwings
on 2008-03-24 05:27:02
 
Four knees...yeah...I never thought about that! Thanx Long :) I like the chick flick with a hot guy idea..hehehe...your opinion holds a LOT of value trust me...its invaluable getting comments and advice from people when all along i've felt like im in this alone...you make me realise that there are people out there who are accepting me the way I am and are there to help even though we are ultimately strangers...so thank you :) And your advice is precious, trust me. Especially the chick flick tip ;)
 
 

Posted by
Long
on 2008-03-24 20:09:40
 
Woohoo! my opinion is valued :) LOL. Well actaully I shouldn't laugh that is important, it certainly made me smile though.
 
 

Posted by
prelude2it
on 2008-03-26 11:14:57
 
I agree with Mer & Colorado. Keep busy. I have been in your shoes many times. When this happened with my now boyfriend, I started going for walks and calling friends. I actually lost 8 lbs in 6 weeks because I got so busy. Use this to your advantage. You deserve to be wanted completely.
 
 

Posted by
angelwings
on 2008-03-27 00:45:11
 
Normally I would be really busy, its just these few weeks that I've had to be at home so then I was acting like a pathetic loser :) Im back on my feet now..we talked it out...when he realised he could actually lose me, things are great now :) Thanks a lot you guys....thanks for commenting, and listening (reading) and just being there :) Meant a lot to me....thanks prelude2it :) I've lost a lot of weight too! :) Loving it...hehehe...
 
 

Posted by
Supporttheflock1995
on 2008-03-27 16:44:29
 
I think your over reacting when my bf and i were going out he never called me and we went out for 3 weeks.
 
 

Posted by
Slash
on 2008-03-29 04:54:53
 
i have to disagree with you Tay. i dont mean to disrespect, but different relationships have different dynamics. some relationships need more space and some need to be held tight. its all about perception and the ideas people hold in a relationship. i personally feel constant communication is very important in a relationship. someone else might think that's smothering. but if i'm in a relationship, i would want my girl to know that i love her EVERY day and how much that love is constantly growing in my heart.

and yes, i have been with girls who have just felt uncomfortable with that much love.

its all about finding the person who is right for you. everyone's perception of perfect is different. and that's okay.

everyone can't possibly be compatible with everyone right? that would be chaos!
 
 

Posted by
Supporttheflock1995
on 2008-03-29 09:25:49
 
OMG that's how I want my next bf to treat me! =(

ANd your right I guess I was still a little depressed there all relationships are different
-TAY
 
 

Posted by
angelwings
on 2008-03-29 13:18:06
 
Slash - speechless. Want to reach out and hug you for that.

Tay - thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read this. I appreciate the comment :) I do agree with slash, each relationship is different..lets not go there right now. But thanks..good luck with everything tay!
 
 

Posted by
Slash
on 2008-03-30 03:49:15
 
hey i'm online right now. i hope you see this comment and come chat!
 
 

Posted by
November
on 2008-03-30 05:16:13
 
Any guy would consider himself lucky to have me...

Perhaps this is why you are dying for him? I don't understand how one guy can assign you to hell so easily, personally, i'd have raised the walls of indifference by now. But then again, you already admited you don't have the ability. . . .


PS: I don't think whales can jump, they get beached all the time, lol.
 
 

Posted by
FutileResistance
on 2008-06-29 18:47:06
 
Its really wierd looking back at these old posts.....
 
 

Posted by
angelwings
on 2008-06-30 04:52:24
 
hehehe...yeah...just some stuff written in depression. tough times...
 
 


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