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why? thats the question that runs through my head every day. why is it that guys only see me as an object of sex. why is it that everytime i think i find a decent guy all they want is to fuck me? i mean i'm not that high maintence. i don't ask for much, just that i can find a guy that like me for my mind as well. I'm not even one of those typical pretty girls i am a tomboy and i have bright red dyed hair with black underneath. i'm skinny yeah. but i don't have big boobs and i act like one of the guys most of the time. sometimes i think i would have been better off staying with my ex fiance. at least i had something. i don't even look for guys i just hang out with them. and all of a sudden they start hitting on me and acting like they actually like me and as soon as i start to let them close they over step my boundries and try to get down my pants. everysingle time. this last time it was a good friend of mine. and he is alot like me raised as a hippie. loves nature and loves music. he's open minded and seems like an all around great guy, but then we go drinking the other night and he is acting all sweet and messaging my back and just being flirty, and then he come over to my dorm room and were just laying there watching a movie and he starts to put moves on me. and i tell him i'm not into having sex when i am not in a relationship with someone. so he says that he can respect that. and we hang out the next day and we get on the conversation of sex. and he says that he doesn't believe in starting a relationship with someone with out having sex first. and all i said was i'm sorry but i'm not like that. i mean i went around having sex with every guy i was thinking of dating or i thought might have potential i would have slept with alot more guys then i am comfertable with and he said he could respect that.. and everything is great and all, but then today i see him and hes like out of the blue he says " i don't think i can give you what you want in a relationship" all i can think is wow. and i know now why he was even interested in me. so he could say he fucked me. i just wish that men could think about things other then sex. like look at me for my mind. listen to what i have to say and not whats inbetween my legs. i wonder how all these girls fall for shit like that. how they can let a guy get down their pants like its nothing. sex to me is something special and i have to have genuine feeling for a person for me to enjoy it to the fullest. i mean i have had one night stands and i have nothing against them but its still only temporary. i perfer something a little more permanent. maybe i'm just wierd.
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Posted by angels_eyes on 2008-03-10 19:25:32 | Rating: | Views: 114
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