I spent this last weekend broken.... really really broken.

I just couldn't see any real hope for my life. Now don't think I was thinking of killing myself. I am far too stubborn for that. No, my thoughts were more of the .... " So this is how it's gonna be for the rest of my life.... Misery for me forever."

This is how I got through ... you'll understand. It's a song by Johnny Cash and it's saved me from my deepest darkest hell too many times to count. Maybe it'll help you too.....

"Unchained"

I have been ungrateful, And I have been unwise.

Restless from the cradle, But now I realize.

It's so hard to see the rainbow, Through glasses dark as these.

Maybe I'll be able From down on my knees

Oh I am weak... Oh I know I am vain...

Take this weight from me, Let my spirit be unchained

Old man swearin' at the sidewalk, And I am overcome.

Seems that we've both forgotten, Forgotten to go home.

Have I seen an angel, Or have I seen a ghost.

Where's that rock of ages... When I need it most

Oh I am weak, Oh I know that I am vain.

Take this weight from me, Let my spirit be unchained