I spent this last weekend broken.... really really broken.

I just couldn't see any real hope for my life. Now don't think I was thinking of killing myself. I am far too stubborn for that. No, my thoughts were more of the .... " So this is how it's gonna be for the rest of my...

I'm such a fool ...my eyes could never never never keep their cool.

This is my tragic love song.

It's by the Red Hot Chili Peppers .....

It's absoultely word for word my life.

Footprints in the Sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord. Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.

I battled some of my demons and danced with others this past few days.

I did not give in to the dope demon, but it took the dance of the booze demon to defeat it. Oh how I hate myself just now.

I recently read a blog that I was really bothered by.

Some people don't have the luxury of close friends and/or family to vent to. Some of us out there have issues that they don't or CAN"T share w

Honestly, I knew before I even got outta be this morning that I would screw up. I had a drug dream last night. For those of you who don't know .... this is a dream that recovering addicts have about using again. If it was just " a dream" I wouln't be talking about it now. Recovering...

Okay I had the worst day ever and blogged all about it ... damnit it was so bad that I failed in my sobriety ... I went to post the XXXXX and it had timed out so I have to start over again!!

Maybe I'll c

I failed. My husband took me to a jazz bar to eat crawfish and po boys ... I broke down and had a few beers. We had fun tho. The club was just like the ones we used to go to in New Orleans. We moved there a couple months after Katrina hit to help rebuild. We fell so deeply in love with that...

So far so good!! I still haven't drank. It's been three days now. Today will be harder than most ... It's my 14th wedding anniversary and my husband is taking me out on a date. I haven't even mentioned to him that I

Okay, here it goes. Yesterday was my birthday ... didn't do a damn thing. I'm 33 now, birthdays just aren't as fun as they used to be!! I sat home with my babies reading comic books, playing playstation and watching movies. It was nice. I didn't drink a single drop yesterday ... I even had a...

Damn it's been a long day! My brother brought his baby for me to babysit at 6 a.m. and I've been running every since! Took all the kids to the pool today... fun but totally crazy!

It took me all of about 1 minute to crack a beer after we got home and my brother came to get my...

Feels Like The First Time .... thats a song by Finger Eleven. It applies to so many areas of my life!

Here are the nicey nice things about me... I'm 33 years old ... I've been married to the same man for 14 years ... I have 3 sons. They are 13, 11 and 9. I'm...