its funny how quickly things can change and how one moment can make you understand things so much more.  i am the type of person that holds back once things get good.  why?  couldnt even tell you, for the fact that i do not know either.  this is the first time i could actually say i feel lonely, confused, not so happy.  i am usually the friend that never wants to have a commitment or anything but why now?  
i have made a promise to myself that anyone from my past will not be in my future.  i did believe in second chances but as of now i don't.