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I break my back.
I do everything I can.
I work, cook, clean and everything else.
Then you still tell me Im bitching when I want you to help me?
How the hell can you do that?
I hate you.
I should have never taken you back.
PEOPLE DONT CHANGE!
I knew deep down when you told me you changed that it was a lie.
Why didnt I listen to what I felt?
Why did I let you back in?
To hurt me again?
To lie to me again?
To break my heart again?
No, I dont constantly hug you and kiss you and tell you I LOVE YOU every 30 seconds.
But I baby you.
And I shouldnt.
I help you.
And I shouldnt.
I love you.
And I really shouldnt.
You dont help me.
And you should.
You dont give a damn.
And you should.
Thats sad.
Very sad.
Ive given my all.
Ive done everything I can.
Im not letting you break me anymore.
Im not being your wall anymore.
The wall isnt standing anymore.
Stand on your own.
You did fine without me.
You worked.
You were healthy.
You were happy.
Should I leave you again?
You must hate me deep down.
And like watching me suffer.
Enjoy me being tired.
Laugh when I say Im hurting.
You never want anything to do with me.
Why should I want anything to do with you?
You better change.
Watch how you talk to me.
Im not your bitch.
You dont deserve me!
Im not playing.
Stop all that youre doing.
Or I will leave.
Again.
Nothing is holding me back.
I dont have to be with you.
I CAN live without you.
People dont change.
I was a fool to think you did.
Im stupid.
I fell for a lie.
Youre no different.
Youre still a jerk.
Youre still an asshole.
You still dont care.
You say you love me.
I laugh inside.
I cant help it.
Because what kind of love is that?
You lie.
You hurt.
Youre lazy.
Horribly lazy.
I hate you.
Im a "loser"?
Cause I blog?
Cause I play computer games?
Cause I dont rot on the sofa with you?
Well Im not a loser.
I go out.
I have a job.
And I work very hard.
Im not doing this anymore.
Im not crying over you anymore.
Youre not breaking my heart anymore.
Why should I stay with you?
You need to convince me!
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Posted by amber224 on 2008-05-19 09:58:25 | Rating: | Views: 94
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Excellent! I feel what you're writing and I've been there. I look forward to more entries.
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Posted by JubJub37
on 2008-05-19 10:15:36
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when a man feels his woman is giving way more than he thinks he can give, he downplays her contributions to try to make the relationship equal again. you will quit being his slave, and he WILL change how he feels, cuz he doesn't give either and that will make you equal. you need someone who believes lkove is worth the effort and gives like you. and you are right. he will not be that person. decide you are worth it, love, and find someone as cute as him who is worth a squat.
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Posted by AllThingsBuck
on 2008-05-19 12:26:28
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such anger. just leave. penty o' fish and all that jazz. i guess?
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Posted by bloodintheeyes
on 2008-07-12 00:55:10
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