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this is me, take it or leave it

This is my first blog, whether or not it's good, is up to you. There's so much that's happened to me. I have Autism. Asperger's syndrome to be exact. My whole life I've heard from people, "oh, you are so lucky. God made a special Plan for you. God gave you the chance to be different. He gave you the chance to BE somebody, to go places. To make a difference and show everyone that not every form of Autism is the same. God made you special, for a reason." What a generic phrase, right? Yes, everyone is different. But am I really that different from all the other teenagers in this town? I think not, I consider myself your typical 16 year old girl whose boy crazy, music obessed, guitar playing, techology loving girl. I plan on going places in my life. Which, let's be honest, is more than I can say for some people. I excell in school, but it gets played down sometimes. Because. Of. My. Autism. If you never knew me, and saw me for the first time, I bet that you wounldn't be able to tell that I have autism. I dont look funny, and I dont talk abnormal. I'm just more different than everyone else. So it MIGHT take a little bit longer for me to understand school stuff like math. So? I am an underdog. I AM going to law school one day, I WILL be a kick-ass procecutor one day. I will prove those uptight school people wrong. You watch. I've dealt with lawsuits with the WFISD. And what's worse, is that it hit the local papers. For a good week I dealt with people bad mouthing, not only me, but my family. People that didn't even know us were saying horrible things about us. Granted, these specific teachers somewhat started it. But this I have to say. I have had amazing teachers. I once connected with one teacher so much, that she's now my best friend. My seventh grade English teacher. She's help me through everything. The only thing I haven't told her was my on and off eating disorder. I've only told one person about it, and that's Jasmine. She also has a blog on here. I feel fat a majority of the time. I'm never the pretty, size zero, blonde, popular girl. I'm the size three, brown hair, fun-loving girl who is never good enough for guys. I'm just the safe friend. I'm the kinda girl who never turns her phone off, it's always by me for one specific reason, in case my friends ever need me. Any time, day or night, I am there for them. I can meet them at IHOP at two in the morning just to talk if that's what they need. Well, that's it for now.