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Manda's stayin wit me and mom now. i dont know for how long tho. I dont mind it, i guess it's okay because me and manda gets along pretty well most of the time. she's not at her place anymore because she, amy and her mom arent getting alone i guess.. im not really sure what the problem was just last night some social worker person told amadna that she had to stay with my mom and she wasnt allowed to stay anywhere but there till they put her somewhere else.
the whole elastic band thing is really not working for me anymore. i stopped as fast as i began.it was okay at first but it stopped affecting me fast. i havent really been thinking about it lately. actually im not thinking much of anything lately..just basically how i can get a gun-and ASAP!... which so much more difficult than i thought. there are just somethings i wish i could just do and get overwith.
but if i do anything to myself then mom will think its because amanda is staying with us and thats totally not the reason ... my reason is just because im sick and tired of everything and everyone and i dont wanna be around anymore... and its not that i know people will miss me, i just dont care ... people die, others live they move on ..its not that simple i know but it just takes a little time to deal with. Not saying that i am going todo anything to myself,, im just saying for the sake of saying.