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wanna tell you a secret & leave it on your lips Explicit Content
WARNING THE FOLLOWING QUESTIONS ARE PERSONAL! 1. will you answer every question honestly? of course:) 2. have you ever stayed up all night while drunk or high? yes, but fell asleep at like 8am . 3. have you ever punched anyone in the face? nah. 4. do you miss anything or......Read More

Posted on: 2008-09-25 11:28:21 | Rating:

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yesterday, September 13th 2008 Explicit Content
There I go again. I was pretty fine yesterday and even a while this morning... but for a while now today I just have this f eeling of anger and hate towards everyone. I don't want anyone around me and when they are i get so XXXXX annoyed. I was babysitting Ashton, and Amanda and Miranda were......Read More

Posted on: 2008-09-14 18:21:39 | Rating:

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reply to indiechick
aha that is weird , no, its not them being racist ... most people around here are as white as me :P i just think it's because I'm pretty ugly! yeah I don't really have self confidence.. Okay, then call me pathetic and sadistic because it's how I feel. well, I did have someone to talk......Read More

Posted on: 2008-09-13 19:33:34 | Rating:

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This Morning
I had this dream this morning. It was kinda funny. I was arguing with my eldest sister, whom I never talk to any more. Then I just pulled out a machine gun (that of my four year old nephews' but it actually worked), and just started shooting her like crazy. I woke up to a knock on the front......Read More

Posted on: 2008-09-11 13:00:13 | Rating:

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veranda
I'm having dreams, each one is me overdosing and mom going crazy and my mind is trying to tell her not to call an ambulance or bring me to the hospital. But each time she do because she can't hear my thoughts. But it's not dreams of deep sleeping and I'm easily woken when I hear mom up......Read More

Posted on: 2008-09-10 12:31:03 | Rating:

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Seung - Hui Cho
I now understand why Seung - Hui Cho done what he had, and I'm kinda envious. I wouldn't ever be given the chance to do something that durastic, tho I think of it alot! I know being treated mean @ school sucks because I experienced it all through junior high and most of high school till I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-09-10 12:28:35 | Rating:

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fencing
I'm on two sides of the fence: On one side I really like this person and I want him to know I do to see how he thinks of it, but on the other side I don't want this person to know because I'm afraid of what he may think of it. ...Read More

Posted on: 2008-09-09 13:23:50 | Rating:

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yesterday Explicit Content
Gahh! Amanda's home from school not even five minutes and she's over here where I am. XXXXX, she makes me angry. I wi sh she wasn't here, but I can't say much to her because mom'll get retarded with me and it'll piss me off even more. I'm babysitting Ashton so I can't just leave. I......Read More

Posted on: 2008-09-06 12:20:58 | Rating:

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school
School don't start for me till the 12th. But the good side to that is that Amanda has started school yesterday and that means she's gone most of the day and I am pretty much alone :), like I wanted. I like it because I can just sit here and write whatever I want without her lurking behind me......Read More