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I stayed home sick today :( I really didn't feel good it wasn't just because there were three lab reports do in science that I didn't do... really not at all... I would never fake sick. Ok well maybe it was partly the reason but I don't feel that great either. Me and Ashley once again had anoher fight but the truth is it was kind of Samantha's fault. She's my best friend and all but sometimes she can be a bit umm what's a nice word for mean? I love her and everything but she has her moments every once in a while. But anyways I think for once all is good between me and Ashley. She had been a total B**** earlier this year but don't we all have those days? I really want us to be friends at least until graduation. I want to keep the drama to a minimum until then.

After graduation I'm going to spend the summer relaxing with my friends and hopefully keeping in touch with the ones that moved away because I am very bad at that. Ashley is going to a different high school. I think that's kind of a good thing. We can still keep in touch but this way we'll probably have less fights. Unfortunately, Samantha is going to that school too. That school is more for kids who don't want to spend 4 years in college and just want to go straight to there carreer. I'm going to a different high school because I don't really know what I want to do yet and I hope I can figure that out in college but I don't know if I can even go to college unless I can get a scholarship because we're definetly not the richest family. Anyways I really want to make a lot more friends next year because all through middle school I pretty much stayed with the same group of people and now we're all going our seperate ways. Two of them are going to the high school that you can get a job without going to college. 2 of them is going to a high school that is mostly for kids that are into animals and like farming. Another 1 is going to some catholic high school and a couple are going to the same high school as me. My sister is going to be a senior next year so she will probably drive me to school with her for a year but I'm proably going to be lost after that. The high school is a lot bigger than my middle school and it is connected to another middle school. It's not like she can bring me to all of my classes.

So enough about the future. Let's talk about my last week or two. Shawn wasn't in school all last week and I had no idea why. Then he showed up on Monday late. I figured out he went to Florida over February vacation and spent an extra week there. He didn't even tell me that he left. So we're kind of in a fight right now and I'm pretty mad at him. Oh yeah and Samantha broke up with her bf. He cheated on her :(! It's probably not the best idea to go out with some one in a totally different school. We finally got lab tables in our science room. We've just been using fold up tables for about a month since they finally fixed the room and there was already a leak in the ceiling! Then the day after the leak incident a whole ceiling tile fell off. It happened over night and it was over a shelf so no one would've gotten hurt but what if they did? Some one would be in a lot of trouble. It's getting really late but I'm not tired at all. I've been having a lot of trouble sleeping lately. Maybe that's why I don't feel good and I'm getting all these headaches. I think i'm feeling a little better than this morning but my left nostril keeps getting runny. The right one must feel so left out. Ok well I'm going to pretend to sleep until about 3:00 in the morning when I actually do.