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Today didn't go so well, either. Started out okay. I slept well, though not enough. Finished my job applications, went and delivered them. Used more gas than I would have liked, but who isn't nowadays?

Watched Georgia Rule because I have nothing better to do here, started to feel restless so I travel to the wal mart in Franklin, which my mother says is closer than the one in Gallatin but I disagree.

I wonder around...not feeling any better. I thought getting out of the house before it got bad would help. Apparently, I was wrong.

I get home and talk to my mom, telling her how pointless it was for me to come when I did. How I should have come when we were first talking about me staying here. She then went on some thing talking about how if she could afford for me to stay here without working, she would gladly let me but they're barely making it as it is. I tried explaining how I didn't say getting a job now is pointless (though it kind of is; if I got hired next week, I'd work six weeks tops...), I was saying coming here when I did was. Then she went on a confusing thing of telling me I should figure out a way to go back to Cookeville but she go to McDonald's tomorrow and get a job.

I was confused on top of being frustrated. So when she asked a question that I had just answered, I went off a little got up and went to my room. Oh...I love how I can still be all teenager-y apparently....

So I cried myself to sleep, woke up four or so hours later feeling a lot better. Mom was already in bed so I couldn't talk to her about it. Not sure if it would have even helped, honestly.

I hate that I'm in the funk and it's affecting everyone around me. I'm trying to take control over it, but I'm doing a horrible job. Maybe going back to Cookeville for a few days will help. Or maybe it won't. I guess I'll know by next weekend.