I am feeling lost and alone. I hate when this feeling comes over me. It covers me like a heavy blanket and I can't get it off. All I want to do is crawl into bed and stay there. All i do is cry and I can't stop. I feel so empty, unwanted and like I have no control over anything. What a horrible feeling. I want to shake it but it won't leave me. No matter how hard I try its there, always lurking, waiting to take over and cover me again in gloom and sadness. I cry, just hoping things will change, I make myself get up.... try....ask....do.... and it just seems pointless. I talk and no one hears me. I am here and no one sees me. Nothing changes. I am still alone....I still have no solutions.....no joy.....no peace. Everyday is a battle with hopelessness. Every single day. I don't want to keep going through this. I don't want to feel this way anymore and its not like I haven't tried a million times to make things different. To try and view things with a different outlook. It is always the same. I am stuck.