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I don't care anymore
I give up. I am done trying. Nothing I do matters. Nothing ever changes. I am miserable, alone and just plain tired of trying when it all ends up the same. I don't care anymore. What good does that do anyway....Read More

Posted on: 2008-05-04 22:07:53 | Rating:

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A Fool
Fed on lies of sweet deception, my eyes were blinded to the truth. My heart now left broken, bleeding in the wake of thoughtless youth. The rules of the game I did not know. The words were spoken but not meant. I trusted and believed and let down my guard now many tears my......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-31 17:35:00 | Rating:

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nights of frustration
I love my kids, I truely do and I would never want to be without them, but there are times where I want to just scream. I feel like the most unappreciated person on the planet. It seems like trying to get them to do anything is a struggle, unless its something fun. Wait that is sometimes a......Read More

Posted on: 2008-03-05 21:10:47 | Rating:

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Treasured Memories
The warm wind rustles the leaves in the trees. The sounds the smells take me to past summers in a wondrous time. Swinging on the old bench swing under the trees. Staring at the patterns of the patchwork quilts that covered the seat. Laying there staring into the canopy of leaves.......Read More

Posted on: 2008-02-26 01:41:16 | Rating:

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blogging or lack of
I know I do not blog much. Lately I have hardly at all. I just get so busy and then sometimes I am not sure what to say. Things are going better, they are not perfect, but I don't suppose they ever will be. That is life. I have a lot of things going on and things I am adjusting to. It can be......Read More

Posted on: 2008-02-25 14:11:17 | Rating:

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uncertainty
Butterflies flutter in my stomach. I am anxious. I am impatient. I wait for your call, it does not come. I am lost, I am lonely without you. Will you break my heart or fill it? I am afraid, yet I continue on, hopeful. My thoughts drift to sweet tender embraces. I am filled with......Read More

Posted on: 2008-02-24 21:05:18 | Rating:

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For Stuart
I had the privilege of knowing an individual who saw everything with such a great outlook. In the short time I knew Stuart I can honeslty say I never saw him without a smile on his face. Not when he had an angry customer on the phone and not even the last time I saw him, when he told me he found......Read More

Posted on: 2008-02-17 22:34:22 | Rating:

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The Case part 2
This is the second installment of THE CASE. If you have not read the first part please do so first. You can find it posted in Badlydrawnstickman 's blog. Happy reading! ********************************************************** *********************************************************. .....Read More

Posted on: 2008-02-05 22:45:20 | Rating:

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I want to hide and wish this all away.
Something has got to change. I know this. And the only one who can do it is me. That scares the heck out of me. I have to finally say what I really want. I am sitting here tonight thinking how am I going to do it? I am so scared of what is going to happen. I have tried to write about......Read More

Posted on: 2008-01-31 05:26:53 | Rating:

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done
You are here then you leave so the pattern continually weaves. Here today gone tomorrow leaving me filled with sorrow. Hopes are born hopes they die you never even say goodbye. Same old story never changes why even bother turning pages. I know the end......Read More