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I tend to make up words. "Votination" means "the act of going out and voting." This is from the International Barbara Dictionary." Anyway, I have voted and feel good about myself. Can't wait to see what happens next, but I can do without the anger from the losing party which is sure to follow. Gosh, I have never been this into politics. I feel like I might be maturing even further.
This morning started out with my oldest waking my youngest, and my finding out that my middle one had broken a coffee table. They aren't usually satan's children, but today, they made an exception just for me. Fun, fun, fun! I totally lost it on them. Most of it was for them, although I must say that other people taking my feelings for granted fueled it a bit. Also, I have felt very vindicated of late by speaking my mind right when I feel something. I have been more confident than ever. Seems that when you aren't terrified that someone may not like you, you can be pretty satisfied with life. I am working on letting go of useless suffering over other matters. One of these days, I may just be fully content with who I am. Well... first I have to conquer my HORRIBLE body image. I, personally, do not believe that it is fully possible. I always think something's wrong with me, even when others say otherwise. It is a pretty serious and painful affliction with me. I am not at the point where I won't leave the house. Once I am dressed and my face is on, I feel pretty OK about myself (sometimes I even feel a bit sexy) and I am learning to look even more confident in front of those whose eyes I think might be judging me (even when they're not). When I am alone, however, I still hold some pretty harsh opinions about my body. Any thoughts from others dealing with this are always welcome, although I dare say that I have tried just about every psychological trick, including hypnosis and positive affirmations, to get over this mental & emotional mine field. It is crazy.
Until tomorrow! New day, new president.
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Posted by aliceclaudel on 2008-11-04 10:20:22 | Rating: | Views: 59
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