My heart goes out to ya, Barbara. I too have this problem, so I know your pain. Not one of my friends or family ever make the effort to call, or write, or come by (except my old drummer in Washington State, who I may end up rooming with). I've lived at my current address for nearly four years, yet many of my peeps don't know there's a complete music studio in my home! Very elaborate. But how can you say you're my friend, yet make no effort to support our friendship? How can these people who live near me not know what color my apartment is? Or do they think friendships just happen without any effort involved? Nice thought, but not very realistic.

But I really know that feeling of needing someone to talk with, and nobody's picking up the line. It hurts. How can I solve these problems w/o someone to help me make sense of it all? Doesn't anybody care what's happening to me? What am I gonna do? I'm scared! The only one who's consistently there to help is God. But sometimes we need a human friend; a hug, or a shoulder. Sometimes, we need someone to laugh at our jokes (even if they do stink!). Sometimes, we just wanna feel like we're in someone's heart; that we're not forgotten.

John

Thank you, John. You have really captured what I feel right now. I lean on God quite a bit, but having a "fellow human" who is enduring their own struggles and shares in your triumphs is one of life's greatest pleasures.

Let me just say, we may never have met, but I am always happy to be an ear for you.

God bless!

We're kindred spirits, Barbara... I feel that there is no greater service in life than to heal the sick, and the sick of heart are my specialty. You have friends here - I know you thought that before with FB, but I wasn't on FB - I'm here. And I'm here for anyone who needs me, until my time is gone. Technical talk, political talk, religious talk - all fine & dandy. But when a person is struggling with issues and their heart is heavy, we must drop what is otherwise a distraction. We can come back to those other things later; my friend needs me first.

John

hugs to you, babe.

sometimes, life is chaotic.