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So I definitely just read an amazing post and it made me think of something else that has been bothering me... AGAIN in my life.
Dating.
What a horrible thing dating is. Seriously it's just a whole bunch of un-needed stress that eventually leads to disappointment and then unavoidable heartbreak on one or both parts. I seriously keep meeting all of these amazing guys... but for some reason I keep finding something about each of them that I don't like and eventually convince myself that it's reason enough to not date them. What is my problem? seriously. All of... well most of these guys are pretty good looking... and nice... but I still find a reason to push them away and hardly even give them a chance... I mean I know I have commitment issues but DAMN. how bad are they? I guess I have just set up this huge idea of what I want and I'm not even really sure if what I want is humanly possible... and if it is... it's definitely not to be found around Green Bay... On the same note I'm not going to lower my standards. There are certain things that I feel should just be expected from someone and a relationship and if you can't work with me to attain them and build a relationship then i guess that doesn't really work either... but what do i know...
at this point i'm not sure if what i'm writing is even making sense. I'm confusing myself. AH. i'm frustrated. I wish I could just let someone in my life and share my life with them... all the guys that I want never end up wanting to be with me and all the ones that pursue me are unwanted. UGH.
or wait... as most classes teach you now... shouldn't i blame some of this on my parents? i mean damn... this really annoys me... but honestly- has anyone else noticed that our society places our messed up lives on our parents or the ones who raised us?? i mean seriously... our insecurities, relationship problems, communication problems... all of them are supposedly to blame on the way we're raised... but c'mon people let's stand up and just say we're fucked up without placing the blame on our parents. I would like to just say point blank I have created my own issues and problems in my life... lol. Maybe some of them stem from me trying to be unlike my family... but idk... we will see.
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Posted by alftcr21 on 2007-12-05 12:49:25 | Rating: | Views: 49
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