I need to talk. I need to talk; I need to talk; I need to talk!
I need to scream. I need to scream; I need to scream; I need to scream!
"Is anybody out there? Can anybody hear me?"
I need to vent...
I need to cry although I already have. I need to scream; I need to howl; I need a hug; I need a friend; I need anything - something; I need time; I'll be fine, I swear. I hope I'll be fine. I hope that this won't last much longer. I hope this is only temporary again. I need someone to be there for me. I made a promise and though you say I can still keep it, it has been very difficult lately. Very, very difficult. I told you that I have been carrying blades around with me for three weeks. Yes, 3 WEEKS!!!! It's been that difficult. I can't even hardly eat. I hardly sleep. I hardly make it through a day without a tear shed - actually, I'm not sure that I have made it through a day without a tear. I thought you would have noticed when we were out at the bar. I thought you were going to notice when we went to eat. I was trying to hide it and I guess that I did a decent job because you did not suspect it. I half wish that you would have and I'm half completely pleased that you didn't. I made a commitment to not do something and committing would be the worst of this. I never wanted to commit - and you should know that. Although what I was doing was not healthy either. I know it and yet I was still doing it.
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To whom it may concern:
I see no reason why you are angry with me because I don't remember doing anything to you or saying anything ever about or to you. If it is upsetting you that I'm living and breathing the same are you are, then I appologize, but I will not go away...at least not for now.
Thank you for your time.
Sincerely,
ME
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