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It has been....Thus...it was.
I'm not quite sure what that means to me exactly, but let's explore. Since I chose to say has been, and was, I am speaking of the past. Thus is a conclusion to the statements, linking them together. Perhaps I am speaking of myself. Perhpas I am speaking of my feelings. Perhaps I am speaking of nothing at all.
Today wasn't a bad day per se...I am just...generally depressed. I have no real reason why, and I have not a "daily questions and thoughts". And how does that make you feel?
I am a stable patient. I am a stable patient. I am a stable patient. Yes, I am a stable patient. I hope that I can believe this. I kind of need someone to talk to. I tried calling someone and that person was unavailable. I guess I will need that appointment on Tuesday. I was goign to cancel tomorrow morning, but I just don't know now. After right now and the way I feel, I can just...well...not really express myself.
I've never had a problem expressing myself. Now I just don't know how to do so. I have tried to do lyrical poetry. I have attempted to journal and blog. I also .... just can't.
I am going through sectors of, when I want to talk, I have to talk because if I wait, I may not want to talk anymore. That just sucks for me because if there isn't someone I can or want to talk to and I do not talk...later, when they are available, I do not talk then either because I am no longer ready.
Well...I guess this will be another night where I will not talk because the person that I called was not available. That fact is fine; I'm just looking to talk and/or bitch or vent. I dunno.
I dunno what to do. OH WELL...g'nite moon. G'nite all. G'nite me. |
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Posted by akos913 on 2008-04-06 23:18:34 | Rating: | Views: 51
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