Dear God: As you know, my son has taken up again with his ex- off and on again girlfriend. I cannot help but to grieve for him and for her. She is a product of bad parenting and example. Not that she is guiltless. But I do understand where she is coming from and why her behavior is so erratic and dangerous. I cannot throw stones at her because I was no better at one time in my life. I am guilty of many sins which you washed away with your blood and for that I thank you always.
However, Lord, I am concern for my son's health, his mental stability and physical endurance. Lord, you know how much he hates been so skinny. Everytime she does something awful and hurts him deeply he goes into this drenched crazy madness of despair and sorrow and looses more weight.
He is tall and yet so thin. He drinks all this get fat milk shakes and nothing happens. He is tormented by his weight loss and appearance. He gets dressed up to apply for jobs only to get turned down over and over again. He finished his $16,000 tuition schooling and got to be an electrician. Yet, cannot find suitable work. He owes all this school money which is a source of worry in his mind.
The other day he had a terrible backache which he has been complaining for a while, and now more recently, I can see that he is in pain. I asked him if he wanted me to rub his back as I used to do for his father all the time. He accepted. As he lay face down on the living room carpeted floor, I rubbed his back and cringed at the protruding bones of his spine and clavicles.
I thought of him when he was a baby. How gorgeous and solid heavy he was. A precious site to behold. Strong he was and very healthy. Now he is a skeleton. His face is the face of the malnourish, starving people of the 3rd world countries. My gosh, I was so repulsed by his physical appearance. God, my heart grieves, it breaks every single day. I am crushed by his suffering. His self hate, it is more than I can stand.
I beg you Jesus, Lord can you not reach down from heaven and rescue my boy? Would you not look upon his lifestyle for one moment and have mercy upon him. Is there any way that you can help my boy gain weight, walk away and stay away from this killing relationship. I am afraid he is going to get seriously ill now that the flu season is coming with the cold weather.
Lord, You are strong, wonderful, merciful and all giving. Abounding in kindness. Can you tell me where I can take this boy to be helped physically and emotionally. He has gone to doctors for his thin condition and they all just draw blood and say, "All is fine." He comes home more discourage and more upset than ever. I know all is not fine. There got to be a place where his condition can be helped and he can gain weight and keep it. I know that his metabolism is fast and what he eats goes through his body so fast calories disappear without going into his fat cells. I ask you Lord God, show me where to go, direct me where he can be helped and cured. I am trusting you for help because You are all I got. Thanks for listening. Amen!
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