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I have always been the one who gave more into my love relationships. I always felt responsible for the health and growth of my relationships. If there was a situation that I found painful, embarrassing or emotionally upsetting I will work very hard to keep it inside my soul and not let it show that it bother me.
On this particular time remember, I was physically, and emotionally very hurt and I had my black and blues to show for it at the time. It was at a hot summer day. I attended a cook out come as you are lawn party. My new gorgeous boyfriend had taken me to meet the party giver and all his friends that would be there. I was eager to be in my very best behavior for I was smitten with this gorgeous hunk of a man.
The day was hot, there was plenty to eat and plenty alcohol to drink up. I was sitting on an aluminium lawn chair when this jerk guy picked up one of his male friends, a grown man, and flung it unto my lap. The chair under me gave way and I went crashing to the ground beneth me with with that grown man on my lap. There was heavy laughter and jeering and all those guys at the party thought it was funny. I don't remember anyone coming to me to asked me if I got hurt. I was! But I wanted to be a fun girl so I I just stayed there on the ground and laughed it up as it nothing had happened.
Next day I hurt so bad in my rear and my hip and part of my leg had this big hematoma or black and blue that lasted for weeks. The hunk I was with never gave it second thought. I should had seeing how insensitive this man I was smitten over was, but I didn't and I ended up marring my own jerk.
I should have know but I didn't. Nobody would have talked me out of marrying this type of guy. The signs were there but I I paid little attention to them. I did not know how to choose the right man nobody ever told me what out for in man a I wanted to marry. I couldn't information that matter. Unless he was a killer, women chaser or physical abuser I did not know what else should matter. I didn't know what qualities to look for in marriage material. That I should be looking for a stable, good employed, responsible, considerate loving partner.
Instead I looked for what soap operas, movies and love novels described as a good catch! I ended up with a net fool of dead weeds and a lman eating shark in it. I am low key by nature and he was stuck on over drive all the time. After marriage the gloves came off and I was abducted into his private army. Now I called it the death army for it nearly killed me.
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Posted by airsjc on 2009-02-04 08:35:52 | Rating: | Views: 28
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