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| I did it again! |
Is my fault, all my fault. I take full responsibility for my actions, behavior and lack of discipline enforcement. Why do I continue to act this way knowingly is going to lead me into trouble.
I hear it in my brain thoughts, 'Stop what you are doing!' You will be late for bed. Pick whatever you going to wear the night before it will save you time looking for the perfect outfit, shoes, jewelry etc. Do these things and bring some discipline into your chaotic life. You will not be so tired if you went to bed around 10:00 P.M. instead of 02:00 a.m. and then wake up three hours later and staying up so more. That is why you are so fatigue, tired, sleepy and unable to function immediately.
I missed church today again. I knew what I was supposed to do yet I continue working in my basement walls. I am re cementing my cinder blocks because of some minor earthquakes we
had that separate the cinder block from each other. The previous mortar cracked or turned into crumbling dust and water sipping was making mold in some parts of the walls. It was not leaking on the outside to the floor but within and that created humidity and mold. Darn!
I have to chisel the old mortal out in so many blocks and refill it with 'quick water stopping' ready mixed cement. I feel burned out! I have so much work to do in the house and outside yard work. No wonder I feel so weak and tired. But that is no excuse. I have no one to help me, but still that is no excuse for not making going to bed early enough to be able to get up next morning.
"Father God, I come into your presence with humility of heart to ask you to forgive my lack of discipline and willful disregard for your messages telling me to stop. I become anxious and desperate to finish the job I started. Stayed up too late! Don't eat properly and of course I cannot be aroused early enough to go to your house of worship. It is my own fault. I know that. I am asking you for mercy and not to remove you love and guidance from me. Help me stay healthy and follow your commands. Amen!
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Posted by airsjc on 2009-06-21 11:12:21 | Rating: | Views: 33
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