I said to myself, I'm going to quit complaining! I'll keep quit, especially when the ungodly are around me. But as I stood there silently the turmoil within me grew to the bursting point. The more I mused, the hotter the fires inside.
Then last I spoke, and pled with God: Lord help me to realize how brief my time on earth will be. Help me to know that I am here for but a moment more. My life is no longer than my hand. My whole life is but a moment to you. And so, Lord my only hope is in you. Save me for beign overpower by my sins.
Bible: Psalms 39 vs 1 to 8
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Gosh, I don't want to complain and be unhappy with my darn situation. but sometimes I feel like I am going to explode. Right now I am getting pretty upset with my back injury. The pain is so acute. If I move a certain way I want to scream when the pain hits me. Yesterday, I had to drive to the post office. I was so burned out. The drugs the doctor gave me to control the pain makes me feel wiped out. How long is this stupid pain going to last. God, help me to have patience and not to panic. Whenever I get sick or phisically hurt and it is taken too long I loose patience and I start to panic. It is a horrible feeling of doom, anxiety and rage.
I don't like not been able to care for myself. I don't ask anybody to help me. I had to rear children, work and do it all for so long when I find myself unable to do for myself I panic. God, help me to conquer such fears.
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