View Blog    This Feeling need to stop Hey.. again.. Yushi here.. I havent mention that I'm a college student.. (17 years old) studying at De La salle university.. ^ ^ The thing is.. I do love my friends there.. though I think we still dont know each other that much.. because we still are freshmen.. haha.. ^ ^ but I'm starting to like them.. no... love them.. but I'm too scared.. to feel that way... because I know.. its all temporary.. and I'm afraid that they would'nt  love me back.. As of now.. My world is about friends.. well.. since I was in 3rd year High School.. my world is my FRIENDS.. ^ ^ haha.. I really want to stop caring for them.. though it really feels nice but I want to have my FREEDOM! I just want to care about my best friends.. and only them.. because I think.. no! I know.. theyre a bit jealous of my college friends.. because most of the time.. I'm hanging out with my new friends. thats why I'm forcing myself to care less about my college friends..but I just cant seem to stop! I ended up.. helping them with their homeworks and personal things I'm really am happy when I'm with them and I really like them.. but I'm afraid of losing my best friends too.. though I also want to be more closer with my college friends.. because they are all very sweet and nice.. its just that.. I'm afraid of losing them someday.. and I know I will.. --------------------------- gusto ko.. sbhn lan toh ng tagalog.. pra nde maintndihan ng iba.. gusto un feeling kpg ksma ko cla.. nde ako nahihiya.. prng dun sa brkda ko.. pero.. nakakatakot.. nakakatakot na kailanganin ko cla at dpt ko clang hanap-hanapin.. mrming beses na un nangyri skin.. un c ariel.. nging best friend ko cia.. at.. alam ko.. corny pero.. iniyakan ko cia.. nung alam kong aalis na cia tpos.. mejo.. malabo na un relasyon namin.. ngaun? nsan cia? wala.. nakakausp ko nalng cia sa multiply or friendster.. at paminsan minsan sa ym.. anu un? matatawag mo ba ung best friend? lalapit lan cia kpg mei problema or galit ako sa knya pero alam ko.. wala ciang PAKE! nde ko alam kung anu kmi ngaun.. best friend? or friend? or ex best friend.. ayoko nah.. natrauma na ko.. isa pa c billy.. nging best friend ko dn.. minahal ko cia.. ng todo2 as a best friend.. of course! pero.. ngaun? asan cia? ayoko na maulit un! ayoko na magmahal ng taong alam kong aalis dn.. cla madel.. alam ko.. andyan cla parati.. bxtah.. alam ko lan.. pero cla patty..ira..nao..fatima..kim.. etc.. alam ko khit isa sa knla.. mawawala dn.. natatakot ako.. ayoko na umiyak.. alam kong mdrma.. alam mo ba? iniyakan ko c Joyce.. nung umalis cia.. nung pmntah ciang saudi? umiyak ako nung gabi.. tamu? c joyce! nde kmi open.. dati lagi ko cia ksma.. at nakakakwen2han pero nung tumagal na nde na dhil kausp ko cla naomi na.. pero.. iniyakan ko cia? bkit? dhil minahal ko na rn cia bilang kaibigan.. bilang isa sa unang kaibigan sa DLSU mejo.. naiyakan ko dn c naomi.. nung mejo nagtampuhan kmi.. akala ko kxe galit cia skin.. pero naluha lan nmn ako nun.. prng mejo naluha.. haha.. nakakatakot.. dba minsan mei filing na.. haha.. mgalit ka.. bhla ka.. wala ako paki sayo.. khit kaibigan mo na un ah? ito iba.. mei nafeefeel na ko sa knla.. na.. hahanap hanapin ko cla lagi.. na dpt makikitah ko cla.. iba na toh.. haha.. dont get me wrong.. nde ako natitibo sa knla.. hahaha! pero.. kinokonsider ko na kxe clang FRIENDS.. at hindi lan bxtah FRIENDS... FRIENDS na mahal ko.. aminin nmn natin na.. minsan mei kaibgan taung nde rn natin mxdong mahal..? db? pero cla.. iba nah... gusto ko clang lalong makilala at khit nga maging best friends eh! pero nakakatakot.. though alam ko.. nde pa kmi open sa isa't isa.. pero.. komportable ako sa knla.. at mahal ko cla... nakakainis.. :( dito nlng.. ggwa pa ko bago.. ^^ -Yushi     Posted by yuxi on 2008-09-23 09:28:01 | Rating: | Views: 29     Email This to a Friend Friend's Email *    Friend's Name*    Your Name*    Security code*    Refresh Image                 Print This Blog Post     Bookmark: Delicious  Digg  Reddit  Facebook  StumbleUpon    Permalink:      Blog Comments    I know how you feel, I went through most of my life distancing others from myself, and I know how hard it is sometimes when all you want to do is let open the floodgates to your heart. I wont make this go for too long but what if you were able to incorporate both sets of friends? Maybe go and do something (Whatever it is you all enjoy doing) will them all. Introduce them to each other, but dont treat any one person better than the others, because that will lead back to the jealousy. As for losing them, I cant promise you that it wont happen, but what you need to do is be able to accept that you do not know what the future holds and enjoy the time you have with them now. I hope everything goes well, good luck, and I hope you end up happy Posted by  DarkArtist  on 2008-09-23 09:49:09  Would you like to comment?     (Maximum characters: 5000)     You have characters left.      Security code:                                                     Refresh Image

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