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Hey...

So here are my real thoughts (and feelings).

Yesterday at church, I found it hard to receive. Certain things on my mind...

Sunday was such an up and down day for me. Before morning service my cousin dropped me off at home and walking to service after catching the bus to town... I just - wasn't feeling it and REALLY REALLY wanted to be alone with God. So I confessed to God that I was feeling lonely and I cast my desires to be with someone unto him. Anyway...

So umm... I ran into one of my Spirit moms and she spoke Word over my life and Knew... SHE KNEW something was up with me right away!! Sigh... so then I spent my time with God.

Crying... Confessing my feelings and confusions on certain things - I feel some release but not all. So I have to meet up with my friends to attend a performance. SO I do that... and one of the girls in my Life Group invited me to hang out with her after that so we did. We talked... and i felt SOOOOOOOO much better!!! :D

But then church came along again.... Evening service this time and uhh... I'm practically DRAGGING myself to church now. Man!! The enemy was REALLY trynna get me yesterday. I think it's because I spoke life over one of my christian friend who is living in the world and because the talk I had with my christian sister really opened my eyes. ='(

After service I had another talk with the girls and it was Good. =) made me laugh alot... :D i loves laughing. anyway.

Today... I am fine. :) I'm much better than yesterday. I just wanted to post a blog because I feel so distant from the internet connection with my friends and it's been a while since i've had the chance to vent online (since i dont have internet at home anymore).

"Always on my mind"
i'll ttyl my friend. (because i'm sure you know me if you were lead to this site)
if not... thank you for taking the time to read the letter of my heart.
May God BLESS you ALL exceedingly and more abundantly that you could EVER imagine!!!
i love you.
signed, Me