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my boyfriend and i broke up a few days ago..................it was really me that broke up with him, i just found out. i was drunk when i did it, and i didn't remember at all until kenzie asked me about it. so i just told everybody that it hadn't been working out. that's a total lie, by the way, but i didn't want anyone to know that i actually drink. so i'm going along with the "didnt work out" story, even though it's not true. i mean, he was really great. not like some of the other guys. yeah, so it really sucks. i'm thinking about saying that it was a really big mistake and that i want to get back together, but i don't know exactly what i said and did. he's been acting really weird, too, so i think i mighta been kind of out there. i know that i can be a really outrageous drunk, soooo....yeah. that also may not convince him, cuz i was drunk, and if i did anything......god, stupid, to put it nicely, he may not believe that it was just a "stupid mistake". but i also dont want him to know that i drink, cuz he doesn't know and its kind of illegal for me to be drinking, and i dont want him to know, so i cant just tell the truth. i feel kind of bad for not telling him. i havent told him a lot of things, now that i think about it. like that i spent most of the summer in rehab and that i probably should be back in rehab. but i wanted to start out new this year. u know, so like he doesnt need to know about my undesirable past. and the undesirale things in my present...hehe......but anyway, it really sucks. and i don't know what to do. well, aside from taking a shot to the head, but i don't have a gun, or any bullets, for that matter. its so sad.....i cant die, but i dont wanna live. not fair. i love you, if he's out there. i'm really, really sorry.
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Posted by XXkazzyXX on 2008-02-09 18:21:56 | Rating: | Views: 111
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Are you really only 12 years old?!
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Posted by BrunetteBombshell
on 2008-02-09 19:08:24
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ya...welcome to america
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Posted by XXkazzyXX
on 2008-02-09 23:29:50
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Go back to rehab.
Stop drinking.
Duh. Good Lord.
Oh, and stop having teeny bopper relationships until you've been sober for at least one year.
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Posted by wee_star
on 2008-02-10 03:37:55
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Drinking isnt that big of a deal and killing your self is a permeanent fix to temporary problems.
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Posted by AubrieA1
on 2008-02-13 09:49:47
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