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| November 7 - Dreams |
Today's meditation (from Living a Sacred Life):
Listening to the dreams of autumn, I am aware that this is a season of letting go and of mystery. I listen for the mystery of life to speak through my dreams. I am grateful for this, and I am open to what it is teaching me.
Ooohhh. This one is hard.
This is a season of letting go. We have to let go of summer and all our dreams of what we wanted to do during the summer but didn't get to do. We have to prepare for winter, and the loss of so much sunshine.
I had to let go of a dream a couple of weeks ago. I was going to get married next fall. But I couldn't do it. He wasn't the right guy for me. I didn't love him the right way, but I thought I did for quite a while. I had to let go of the fact that I was not getting married, and let go of the realization of that dream. I was so intent on getting married, finally at twenty-seven, that I didn't see right away that he wasn't right for me. The Spirit had told me to give him a chance, that he would be something special, before we started dating. I wonder what that specialness was. Well, he did give me a lot of self confidence that I didn't have before. Maybe that was his specialness.
The answered prayers or unanswered prayers are our dreams and a way to listen to the mystery of life. God is the mystery of life. It is by His will that things happen in our lives. When we pray, say for the returned health of a dying loved one, He may or may not answer that prayer, but why does he do either? What is the purpose in our lives, according to God, that that person lives or dies? We know that we love the person and want so much for them to live, but that may not be what God wants. And why does He want that? No one really knows. It is the mystery of life, but our lives would be boring without that mystery. Its good to have a little challenge in life. If we knew that that loved one was going to die on that day, would we even bother with doing anything about it? We would know the inevitability of it, so why try? Personally, I think that that would be a horrible world to live in. I want and love the mystery, and though part of the mystery is suffering and loss, my personal theory is that God wants us to learn something from it. I've gone through a lot of suffering in my life, and it has shaped who I am, and taken me to a much different place in life than I would have been if it hadn't happened. But I like who I am now. And I wouldn't be where I am now, a place that I love with the friends that I have now. I love the saying that God wouldn't give us anything that we couldn't handle. That may not be true, and I'm sure some people would argue its truthfulness to me. In this context, there would be the question of suicide, that there are people that just can't handle it. But that's a big topic in itself, so I won't go there now.
I know that every minute of my life, every second, I am learning something about myself, others, and the world around me. I'm learning more about the mystery of life, and the fulfilment (or non-fulfilment) of my dreams. Its all a learning process. We won't ever know everything in this life. And that should be a cause for joy.
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Posted by WillowPhenix on 2009-11-07 09:28:27 | Rating: | Views: 5
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