I just need a friend.

I have felt really down latley and instead of my friends trying to help me out they talk about me behind my back.

A little advise : Friends are really a gift and are amazing part of most peoples lives. Don't judge your friends, which you can do, judging isn't only for people you don't know. When your friends need help : Give them help!!! Don't let them just fall deeper.

I don't usually wear my heart on my sleeve so I'm not a burdon but these last few weeks I have just stoped caring what others thought and totally veged out. The thing is I felt worse. I felt myself change because I let the little stresses of the world get to me.
 
I told the one person who was there for me : My loving boyfriend who means the world and so  much more to me that i wanted to be that laided back person I was before and I wasn't going to let things get to me.

Yet later that night one of my friends got on and told me what people had been say behind my back, some of my own best friends. And I let it get to me. I freaked out on her.

If I really wanted to make that change then I would of went to school tomorrow and told those people who had said I had become a bitch that I was sorry for what I had put them through for the last month or so. I also judged my friends right back but I didn't relize that they didn't understand what was going on with me.

I just want to say sorry to all the people I have effected. I know that I probably havn't effected you personally but I need to say it if it has reached you through a chain reaction.

My advise :

Forget about it. We all have our days. But if we let stress get to us we will have a lot more of the bad ones.