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| My first anxity attack over food |
Today I had my first anxity attack over food. Not sure what I feel about that. One side of me feels a little proud that my control is getting better... but another part is worried that this will become reaccuring.
Yesterday after my blog I ended up STILL hungry. I wanted pizza!!! Because I opened up my freezer to get ice for ice cold water and saw yummy yummy pizza.
I told myself "Tomorrow you can eat pizza. Today you have already had your extra snack!"
I was feeling confident... but I kept thinking about the pizza, kept going BACK to the pizza.
So I comprimised. One scoop of ice cream instead of a 400 cal pizza.
Im bummed I couldn't keep the controll up, but I'm happy that I comprimsed.
But, so today... I didn't eat until 3. I had half of that pizza I really wanted yesterday. Yum!! Then grandma called and said she will be picking me up to get this phone nonsence dealt with already!! So after that, she wants KFC... and wants me to eat too. I didnt want to tell her I just ate (because, in reality... I love fast food and can't say no when offered!) and figured that since it was only half of a 400 cal pizza that a little bit of chicken couldn't hurt.
Well, I'm looking at the menu and place my hand to my neck to rest it while I look and I feel bumps! I seriously broke out into hives over this! What? I started getting nervous looking at all the food thinking of A.> what i want and B> what was a little amount. I felt a bit woobley. But maybe its just left over dizzies from the flu I had. Thats what I told gma when she asked why Iwanted such a small amount of food.
"My appitate hasnt been the best since I had the flu"
Liar.
I ate some of the chicken, but when grandma got up to get napkins I threw some fries under the table (sorry KFC crew). Then I closed my box and said I was done.
I felt guilty about the food I didn't eat... but I didnt want to force myself. I just wasnt hungry!
I had a flash of worry when gma wanted me to open the box to put some of her left overs in to give to her dog.
But, if she noticed how much I didn't eat, she didn't mention.
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