why cant u just be happy with who u are??

Because it's now who I was 4 months ago. It's about being in a healthy weight (113 is healthy for 5 ft 3) and happy with myself as well.

No gag reflexes do i want to know why?

haha dirty.

When I was little I was really sick and got barfy sick 3 or 4 times a day, since then my body trained itself to hold back the need to be physically sick like life depends on it.

Ohh okay...........

honestly...do not look to develop an eating disorder. Yes its good to avoid the fries and milkshakes, but starving and purging are not going to make you look like her! Just eat really healthy (salads, grilled veggies, fruit and yogurt for dessert, omelets, grilled fish etc) for at least a month and take up exercising (cardio and strength) and you will see results and most likely become more interested in fitness and healthy eating. This takes more effort and yes...is actually difficult and not as easy as just looking towards "ana" and "mia" but it will make you look hot and have muscle tone. "Ana" doesn't make you look cute. Im 5' 3" too and right now im at about 90lbs. And let me tell you...i dont feel anything like the girl in your thinspo. I want to get back to eating healthy and exercising again because it feels so good and makes me happy. stay healthy...just be dedicated and you'll feel better...it just takes time.

Thank you :)
I thought I mentioned that this was not my asking to devolp an ED.. not at all... I love food too much to leave it.. guess that sentence didn't make the final cut on my email.
But I wanted to have it in this area because I admire the self controll in you gals that I don't have... and I really didnt want a million people just telling me "no dont do it, be happy with yourself." I wanted real advice :P

Thank you so much for the ideas. I do love salads, maybe when I go to the store I will concentrate more on that then getting tv dinners (I live alone and dont cook!)