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Why am i here on this site?.....I have been asking myself this allday!.....To be honest and i mean brutally honest i dont really know.....Maybe its to try and make friends , but im such a complete F.CK-UP that i normaly loose them as fast as i make them anyway!.....Maybe its to try to make amends to all those i have hurt in the past and who either , cant or refuse to forgive my mistakes!.....Is it an egotistical way to be noticed?......I dont think it is!.....Maybe its to find my inner true self?.....No thats crap and to be truthfull i dont really think i will ever find that!!.....To be honest and truthfull its the only thing i can think of doing to stop myself going totally INSANE!!!.....Yes i am emotionaly scared by life , but so have many here , so that does not make me special.....I have B.P.D. thats borderline personality dissorder , i have battled with this all my life , and believe me im one screwed up dude!!!......The reason i am here is because i am lonely , i have nothing else in my life and if i hadnt found this site i would have probely have commited suicide......Its not the fact that i can vent here , thats great but not the main reason......I have spent allday looking at others BLOGS.....Some i really relate to , others not so much......I am not here to GET DISCOVERED AS A GREAT WRITER.....As i am crap at that too.....The truth is i am here because i have nothing else in my life and nothing else to do.....Maybe i will become less selfish and learn to have more empathy by reading others posts and maybe to stop feeling so sorry for myself.....But i doubt it.....It is just somewhere to hang-out and maybe one day , for the first time in my life , it will become somewhere to belong.....AND FOR THAT I AM GRATEFULL!!!.
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Posted by WhindWhispers on 2008-01-27 22:22:15 | Rating: | Views: 118
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what can i say? those are questions i was asking myself earlier too...why am i here? maybe it is to help sort out my thoughts, which at the moment are crowding my head so bad i cant think straight, or maybe it is to find myself, the most difficult and enlightening thing at the same time...but there is hope, you can find yourself if you want to...i would love to continue reading your blogs, i felt like this site was a life saver...it's funny, what difference does it make if i say this here or say this in a private document on my laptop? i guess it's easier to share your thoughts with others...if you are anonymous that is...
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Posted by optimistc_cautiously
on 2008-01-27 22:37:00
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I've spent all day reading others too. you're probably not as screwed up as you think.
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Posted by otherwoman
on 2008-01-27 22:39:19
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Crazy how life is ....Crazy how we stero-type our selves. I relate. I have a drug problem. That is enough to make a person crazy.
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Posted by merica1006
on 2008-01-27 22:42:14
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Trust me, you'd be suprised at how many people here are right there in the same boat with ya. And being anonymous about it is a beautiful thing ;)
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Posted by W8nOn2morrow
on 2008-01-27 23:11:35
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OPTIMISTC , Thanks for your reply it made me think!...Sorry about the mix-up in private chat , i do hope that you got my mail....I hope you come back and read this!.
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Posted by WhindWhispers
on 2008-01-28 01:10:51
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OTHERWOMAN....LOL....Believe me im screwd up , lol but thanks!.
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Posted by WhindWhispers
on 2008-01-28 01:13:32
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MERICA .....Sorry to hear that sh.t , i thought i had problems .....Take care!. P.S. , hope you make it through the other side!.
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Posted by WhindWhispers
on 2008-01-28 01:17:05
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W8....Your so right thanks!.
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Posted by WhindWhispers
on 2008-01-28 01:19:07
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