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All my life, ive been held back. Told its safer to sit in my wheelchair and watch, thats its too dangerous to do things, that id be better off just not doing things. All my life ive longed to be set free.
I relied on family, friends & partners to get around and I couldnt be independant.
I made a break for freedom when I learned to drive and finally learned to walk unaided again. Id go sit on the beach alone and feel proud id got there myself, with no help.
Id take my dogs out and walk in the park, I was able to break free again. But then the pain started to creep in more and more, and I became depndant again on the help of others.
Today I have the problem of protections. Yes I know people wouldnt think thats a problem as such, but when you have brittle bones and your parnter is scared to do anything incase he hurts you, you feel like you cant do anything at all.
I know hes just trying to protect me, and do his best to make sure I dont get hurt. But hes actually holding me back, and taking away my freedom.
When I want to go a walk in the country, he tells me the hills to steep and that he doesnt want to incase I fall. When I want to make love, he says no because im sore today and he doesnt want to hurt me.
I just want him to follow me up that hill, and catch me if I fall instead of stopping me trying. To find another way to make love that wont hurt me, instead of denying me the closeness I love so much. I just want him to help me fufill my dreams, instead of telling me my dreams are too dangerous.
I know hes loving and caring for me, but I want to be able to live and life is full of risks that im willing to take.
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Posted by WeeMimi on 2008-04-08 10:47:56 | Rating: | Views: 48
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that is an inspiring story
and i belive that u can do anytihing and ur partner is just trying to be careful but i dont think he should hold ur freams back
tell him how u feel about it
he might accually listen
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Posted by beautifullybroken333
on 2008-04-08 10:51:43
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