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So its monday. Generally a bad day but this week it decided to be especially bad. I had to drive 2 and a half hours to go to one call today for my job. that is just ridiculous! why is my sales territory so big?? lets just say that the 2.5 hour location was one i am very familiar with. it happens to be a big summer camping resort. My family has a cabin there as well as a lot of my exboyfriends. it was just a couple summers ago that i spent the night at nate's cabin. such an awesome experience but now it just brings up painful memories. i mean its basically the straw that broke me and nate's mediphorical camel's back. After dating the boy on and off for 5 plus years it was the time to make it or break it... of course i broke it.
it just seems like bad timing. a couple weeks ago my mom made a very random comment about nate. she just blurted out that she always has and still does think that he will be the one i marry. WTF? he has a girlfriend now and the last time i checked i had a boyfriend. i mean who just says these things? and why does it bother me so much? maybe because me and nate dont even speak right now except for a few akward conversations in our attempt to be friends every few months.
augh, i just never seem to get things right. i always end up with regrets and with all these scars. its just annoying. for once i want to look in the mirror and be able to stand what i see. i want to be satisfied with the decisions that i have made over the past 21 years and enjoy the life i have now. i guess ill try to do better with the next 21 years....
sorry this was a little depressing... :( |
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Posted by WannaBeRockstar on 2008-07-21 17:08:10 | Rating: | Views: 20
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