I returned home from the lake this afternoon. Only eleven more days until my Summer ends, college is tall on the horizon now. Moving out should be easy enough. Things here and there, nothing amazing.

The Lake was good fun, but only a narrow retreat from my family's typical qualities. It's okay though, I welcomed my minnute escape from Summer's drawn out breaths. The last two weeks have passed so quickly. Disney World with Carly, Holli, and Diana was a blast. Diana and I have never felt so close. We had a serious Jens Lekman thing going on.

Now for news from the battlefield. Lets just say that I'm glad to have Corinne Bailey Rae and KT Tunstal around to keep me company, they keep the lonlieness well at bay. I haven't been able to listen to Ryan Adams without my stomach lurching into my throat and sobbing. While camping I tired to explain how I'd been feeling about our relationship latley. I don't believe he understood what I was trying to get across. He just kept saying he was sorry and that it was all his fault, even though nothing had happened. Sometimes he's so en-empathetic. He used to read me like a book, but that was when we could touch. I guess distance isn't just a number on mapquest directions. I want him in my life, but I don't know if circumstances will permit a heathy relationship. I swear, I don't know how Emily has done it with her boyfriend for so long. She does the opposite of what Stev and I do which is to say, having Summers together and school months apart. oie vay.