For the majority of my life I have not dreamt. Rather, I am sure I have dreamt, just never remembered it. I've noticed that when I get 8 or more hours of sleep I DO remember my dreams. It just so happens that insomniacs rarely get 8 or more hours of sleep.
The last few weeks I have been getting a lot of sleep, and even on nights where I don't, I still dream and remember those dreams. Most of the time they're very normal, typical and silly dreams. You know where it's the people in your life but it's not REALLY those people. Or you're in "your" house, but it's not REALLY your house? Those kinds of things. The last few nights, however, I keep dreaming about my friends dying. It's very strange...and surreal.
Last night I dreamt that my friend Alicia, whom I haven't hung out with in a very long time, died in my arms from alcohol poisoning. In my dream we were at her birthday party (and her twin sister's) and she drank way too much. We brought her back to her hotel room where she was vomitting in the kitchen sink. I was holding her, as I was the only person sober enough to do so, and trying to clean up some of her puke at the same time. In my dream I remember thinking everything was normal, drunk night. She'll puke and we'll put her to bed and wake up just fine. However, in my dream I felt her heart start to slow and then eventually...stop. I remember becoming frantic and getting her parents there...the next thing I remember is we were all at a get together, a week or so later, and we were all upset about Alicia dying. Then I woke up.
What's particulary creepy about this dream is that all of the people in it WERE my actual friends, and it was really me. We were at a hotel where I had stayed with Alicia in the past. A few nights prior I had a similar dream but I can't remember the details of it anymore.
I don't necessarily believe dreams mean anything. Like I don't believe in that book of dreams type stuff where death always means this, and rain means that. Nor do I really believe they mean much of anything. I think dreams are simply our mind's way of releasing emotions or subconcious thoughts. Sure there can be exceptions to that rule (like maybe a dream that repeats itself time and time again) but that's my basic thought. I think these dreams of death (where people are always dying from alcohol or drugs) is my mind's way of flushing out how Kevin and Marshall died earlier this year. Marshall technically died from a "cerebral hemmorage" but I am still not personally buying that. Kevin definitely died from drugs and alcohol.
Sometimes maybe death can be too much for a person to handle conciously, so our mind's push it back. I just went to a funeral on Monday for my cousin, that seems to have triggered these dreams. One can only think that's why.
Just needed to type it out. I hope everyone is doing well.
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