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2008-07-11 13:07:24
VarahnTet
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120349
2008-07-08 15:25:34
What the hell is wrong with you?
They love you unconditionally until you tell them you don’t. There are conditions to your love???!!!
Are you insane?
Your job is to guide and teach. Not to order and preach. You made him what he is today. She will never forgive your abandonment.
When you wake up in the morning and when you go to sleep at night the first and last thoughts should be of the child you brought into this world. Every child, no matter who they are, deserves only your love, you owe it to them. You chose to create life!! Why are you destroying it slowly everyday by burning the innocence and love out of their souls with your hateful words?
Mother is the name for God on the lips and hearts of all children.
Father is the name for Conscience in the minds of every young boy and girl.
What is your name?
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I LOVE YOU!!!
~Tet~
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104639
2008-06-03 10:32:47
First off let me start by saying, “Ich bin ein gamer!” I play a lot, a lot a lot. But I make no excuses as I am not sitting in a bar drunk or ignoring the rest of my life and the world around me. It also allows me time with my children as well as a way to bond with them…even if we are yelling at each other to push ‘A’ or get out of the way before I frag you to death. =)
I’ve read recently in Game Informer the profiles of some of the top gamers in CoD4 and their parents reactions and was pleased to see their attitudes towards gaming and their kids playing was very similar to mine. I too believe it’s good in moderation for them as well as building their social interactions and forging some strong friendships, albeit, online.
So since games and gaming are influencing mainstream society, I have some thoughts on the state of video gaming today…good bad and indifferent.
1. I think one of the problems is that we have these awesome consoles that aren't fully being utilized yet. But it’s usually towards the end of a console lifetime that the most advanced games come out anyway.
2. I can't say that some exponential jump is going to occur in gaming, but when it comes to the beginning of the next, look at how we were wowed by Oblivion, with its character generation and albeit, limited, AI. Look at how almost half way through, we've got Mass Effect. I say half way because the technology was there long before the console shipped in 2005 and they had to have been working on that game for at least a couple years too.
3. Each time we make a jump no matter how incremental you may think it is, they are planning for end life technology and games from the beginning, and it's the game developers who are having to learn and adapt and then surpass that technology by the end. It's the circle of console life.
4. I don't think the next jump will be long in coming, the next jump is going to happen in at least the next 2 years or so. Generally the life of any computer technology is 5 years, then it's old hat.
5. I do think that some kind of progressive wowing in gaming is going to happen, not a major leap. Maybe I'm a bit more optimistic. I think there are some really fantastic games out there, but I also think there are some clunkers.
6. I don't have the kinds/amounts of games that a lot of people have to judge this on, but the games that I have, I'm wow'd most of the time. I think the only real disappointment to date, with a next gen console, has been Two Worlds. Other than that, Oblivion, Saint's Row, Mass Effect, Assassin's Creed, Lost Odyssey, all WOW!
7. Wii games are the most interactive games ever. And that's where I see the technology going, getting people off their keisters and really participating in the games more. Heck, I'm holding out for a "Holodeck" type system, not that that's gonna happen in our lifetime, but it's not that far off technology wise IMO.
8. The "fans" are having a bigger input into what comes out. As they should. Heck, we spend the money that goes in their production budgets as well as salaries.
9. I am a big supporter of the small business man, what a shame about Clover Studios, after getting Okami for the Wii and having played Viewtiful Joe, they really should have been kept afloat by their parent company, as they had really awesome imaginations. Hopefully those guys will be snatched up quickly as we need many more like them.
10. And last but not least, we need those recycled, rechurned, mainstream games/gamers to keep the business going for the likes of us......the pickier, harder to please types. =) And each time they do the recycling, eventually they are going to come up with something completely new, based on churning and churning, to really wow us.
Yeah, I know I'm totally more positive on this whole issue than most of the “fanboys” out there, or even some of those uber entitled children who think they are game developers and can do everything soooooooooo much better.
I just know that when I sat down at my brand new Atari in 1976 did I ever, ever think that I would be playing what I am today.
~Tet~
ps. I base 99% of my "thoughts" on my ownership of an Xbox 360 and Wii. ]]>
102320
2008-05-28 14:56:11
Here’s my deal, I just don’t have the time to contribute to finding the answers to the questions in my head. Sometimes, I have extremely profound ideas then want to act on them, but usually I just file them away in some lateral file in my brain until I run across them again.
One thought that does come up often is on tracking the whole global warming thing. So I’ve decided to seize on the opportunity while the thought is fresh in my mind. Here goes:
What if all of it (global warming) is actually just leading up to some kind of natural earth cycle instead of global warming being the problem in and of itself? And maybe, just maybe, we are just really helping it along or bringing it on faster?
Just rambling.....sorry....I mean I totally believe in global warming, we do have proof of the damage, but there have been so many natural MAJOR weather changes and disasters, that I can't completely blame it on that. I just know, we can’t be helping right?
I used to think this was far way off in terms of experiencing it, but with recent events in Myanmar and China (rest their souls), how can we not look to ourselves as the precipitators of these disasters?
And since we aren't helping the whole weather thing, I want to know why with the amount of weight we are putting on the planet, how are we not throwing our rotational axis off? I know the earth is not on a straight axis already...but what's stopping it from completely wobbling off axis altogether? Is there some magical number that the scientists know that they aren't telling us that they are keeping track of? How can we keep adding this many people, all the excess trash, the man made materials, etc, etc, etc, and not expect the earth to go wait a second! And either affect the weather so catastrophically as to help the planet cleanse itself via natural selection, or just make it flop over completely dead?
And if someone like me is thinking about it.....someone else must be right? What do you all think? What do you KNOW? Hook me up with some interesting thoughts because I am going bonkers over here.
I know you'll probably just go "WHOAMG! She's off her rocker so just ignore her......maybe she'll go away........*stick fingers in eyes*……I can't hear you......lalalalalalalalalalalala.........!"
But seriously, this is what happens when I have nothing around but me and my thoughts.
~Tet~
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102287
2008-05-28 13:49:43
I used to have this talk with a friend of mine, the things we don’t think about when thinking about things. Mine is pondering the Universe. Doing this is like experiencing all the side effects of most prescription drugs: May cause nausea, dizziness, diarrhea, malaise, vomit, headache, dermatitis, dry mouth, etc.
Yes, it freaks me out that much!
I will admit that blatant fictionalization has helped me. From Battlestar Galactica to Mass Effect, I love it all, but it still freaks me out. Don't get me wrong, I do a lot of reading about the universe and try to keep up to date on what is happening out there, but if I sit and think on the Universe and try to ponder it as a whole rather than in small news bites or specific discussion, I just seize.
Thinking about it makes me realize how small and how insignificant I am in the grand scheme of things. How much I pray for mankind and the way we are contributing to our own extinction. How arrogant we are at times to assume we are the only intelligent life anywhere. How quickly and easily we discount stories about UFO's and anything remotely challenging our place on the evolutionary ladder. How much I think that my country is the main problem with global society today. (Oil consuming, hummer driving bullies that are in power with their like minded greedy minions backing them. =( sorry ) The media touting their own ideas and philosophy or promoting the next 15 minute man of the environment, like it were gospel. And saddest of all; the loneliness that is consuming our children as parents are trying to keep up with the “Jones’s”, instead of being there for the kids.
This is the image I think, as a whole, we put out into the Universe. And who knows what or who is out there watching? I imagine we leave the universe wondering how long we’ll last, and waiting for the next evolutionary top of the food chain society to come along.
Please do not discount these irrational fears as lack of respect or awe or intrigue on the final frontier though. I hope one day we do find “something” out there.
I just hope we won’t do what we normally do when we do.
Peace.
~Tet~
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101398
2008-05-26 16:19:54
Seriously.
When I go to the dry cleaner, I stand there and spell my name over and over. With a nametag they could never get my name wrong….on paper.
With my trusty name tag they may still call me Ms. Tit-lay (Tittle) when I check out at the grocers, but they’ll remember my name tag after I correct them. 
With a name tag, the guys at GameStop could get their laughs out long before I have to say my name when making a game reserve. *snicker*
At a nightclub, you don’t have to call me darlin’, darlin’.
*points to name tag*
My Name Is…
A name tag would always answer the question, “Do I know you?” All without that embarrassing look on my face because I don’t know if I do…and if I should say anything or just play along.
I wouldn’t seem like the crazy lady in a floppy hat saying hello to you in the park. Well, I still would, but at least you’d know my name in order to report me. 
The postman would always give me my mail when I meet him at the mailboxes, instead of making me wait to put the little key in the little door.
When I’m out for a meal, and I ask, can I get fries with that? I can get away with it. *mmmm fries sound good*
And, if only name tags could be seen through the phone.
I’m tired of getting mail, tickets, anything sent to Ms. Tiddle, Piddle (I know right?), Tuttle, Title, Little, because you think my name can’t possibly be, Tittle. 
That’s Tittle, like little, but with a ‘t’, like in Tom, T-i-t-t-l-e.
That’s, T as in Tom, I, T as in Tom, T as in Tom, L, E.
It wouldn’t be so bad having a name tag on. Think about it if you had one, how much easier and nicer would things be? How much nicer would you be?
Thank you.
~Tet~ ]]>
101281
2008-05-26 09:44:17
By night, Tet. With purpose, badness rising, unstable to a fault, I AM TET!
When the two collide, both are filled with guilt and anger.
Tet is not going to work today.
V is not answering the phone tonight.
Today V will go to church, Tet dragging along.
Tomorrow Tet will do all the things V will confess later.
Tet knows exactly what to say and when to say it.
V struggles to string words together coherently in conversation.
V would never tell the dirty secret to anyone, ever.
Tet will embellish the dirty secret to you and you and you and you and you.
V can only pray Tet will one day quiet down.
Tet can only hope that V will one day win the battle;
For both our sakes.
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100849
2008-05-25 01:06:10
I am the last person to preach, I don’t get on a soapbox, I don’t want to say something about Faith vs. Religion. Not that I am knocking organized religion as a whole. As a whole I feel that religion serves it purpose for those that practice it. Faith is always the highest denominator of all Religions.
Peace be upon you all.
The truth is that so many fall out of favor with religion, whether it is a bad preacher, a bad experience, or money, many have experienced doubts. What I want to say is that when you know this doubt, trust your Faith. It will lead you home.
Faith and religion are not the church, synagogue, mosque, temple only. They are the knowing you believe in something more than today. Knowing that tomorrow will be different than today. Knowing that tomorrow may not be there, and that when it is not, there is something more when tomorrow no longer comes.
Here then are 10 thoughts on Faith & Religion:
1. HE will understand. When you have faith, you know that GOD, your GOD, will understand. The faith you have in HIM will be HIS due.
2. It’s okay to doubt. HE gave us this for a reason. HE would not expect us to be blind in our Faith.
3. Money is the root of all evil. Faith is not in the almighty dollar. It is in your almighty GOD.
4. Prayers are like tears. Lost but not forgotten. HE will not deny you your sadness through Faith.
5. Laughter is the best medicine. When you Rejoice in your faithful life, you praise HIM.
6. You are not alone in your Faith or Religion. HE will fill your life with love and surround you with HIS light.
7. Practice daily what you believe. Your Faith will guide those around you; religious, faithful, and unbeliever alike.
8. Do not condemn. Your Faith is yours, their religion is theirs. Judgment is HIS alone.
9. Lift up your Religion. Strengthen another’s religious self to include the Faith you know.
10. Religion and Faith follow no Man. There are prophets, speakers of the Faith. Follow your Faith in GOD each time to find what you are looking for.
I want to say I use GOD, HIM, HIS, HE as a nod to my Faith, not to pass my view on as the truth, this is what I believe.
I truly believe that whatever YOU believe is best for you. Just keep believing and hold true to your Faith.
~Tet~
ps. As an afterthought, I failed to mention I wrote this for my youngest Son who is struggling with a matter of Religion vs. Faith. Join me in sending him your prayers to guide him towards renewing his Faith. ]]>
98932
2008-05-20 09:52:47
Beer was the only thing on my mind.
I just wanted to finish the job I started so I could get myself down to the bar for a drink. Who gives someone a major project on Friday at 4pm!?!? No one that’s who! So I rev the engine of my little friend and started hacking away at resolving the problem. I’ll definitely need to change my clothes before heading out I thought.
Where did the time go?
Wow! It’s 4:35 now and I only have a few minutes left to get this done. Guess I’ll take care of Bob down the way, he’s fat, and can’t run too fast. I slice the Achilles tendon to keep him stationary while I remove the part of his face that bothers me the most, his eyes. I never liked the way he looked at my boobs. And Angela in HR, with her bouffant hair don’t and gossip, “Take a look at it!”, I say as I dangle her scalp in front of her. Her now stitched shut and silent mouth contorted with despair.
The FedEx man finally arrives….
In time to deliver my paycheck and a small package between his legs that I toss onto the receptionists’ desk after I lob it off cleanly from his groin. The receptionist starts screaming like she’s never seen a prick before, so I shove it down her throat, choking her. It was the only way to keep down the shrill din emanating from her yelling. I look down at my watch and notice it’s 4:52 and make for my desk.
Forget the 5:00pm deadline, I’M OUTTA HERE!
I get back to my desk, someone’s head in my hand…..OH! It’s Mary, well, she’s had better days I think, I plunk her down on my chair and give her spin, blood splattering my window view. As I’ve now abandoned the hope of actually finishing the job by 5:00 with this chainsaw, I grab my purse and toss the grenade inside into the accounting department and call it a night.
TGIF!!
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97215
2008-05-15 11:27:24
Isn’t it strange how life moves? Like waves on the beach. Some days the tide is high, you are surrounded, full of joy. The next, low, barren stretches of dry callous days and sadness. But somehow, in the middle, they meet, blending the two so that the good days are tempered by the bad. The bad doesn’t seem so bad when happiness starts to rush over you again and again.
I felt that way today when a friend, albeit I haven’t talked to her in months, called me out of the blue. I’m not sad mind you, more resigned, but it was so uplifting to hear her voice. I have been keeping so much inside, things I can’t tell the people around me now, in this place. But when I heard her, all of those thoughts, feelings, emotions, rationalizations, came flooding out. It was as if she knew I needed to talk to her.
She got me to thinking and here are 10 reasons why, we need good friends:
1. Because they “get” you. – You could be like me, a little brusque at times, but really a bowl full of Jell-O when it comes to my dog. But they love you anyway.
2. Because you “get” them. – They don’t command you to listen to everything there is to talk about, about themselves. And because you love them.
3. They know when to be mean. – Pull yourself together woman/man! Now is not the time for a pity pot session.
4. They know when to offer a shoulder. – I’ll be here for you, whatever you ask. Except a six pack of beer and a box of cigs. ;-)
5. They don’t care where you live, what kind of car you drive, whose label is on your clothes. – Because that is not who you are, it’s only material possession. And friends like that, you don’t need anyway.
6. Your secret double life doesn’t bother them. – We all have them. Whatever dirty little secret you hold, they know, but don’t judge you.
7. They forgive your trespasses against them. – Not, oops I cheated with your husband type mistakes. More, I can’t believe I forgot to pick you up mistakes.
8. Goes without saying, you forgive them. – As the prayer says, forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.
9. They are not as weird, silly, serious, intelligent, crazy, confined or as loving as you. – They are the Yin to your Yang. Creating a unity of opposites.
10. They’re just as weird, silly, serious, intelligent, crazy, confined, and loving as you. – Like two peas in a pod, you fit just right together!
Well those are my reasons for having good friends. I don’t mean acquaintances, people drop in and out of our lives for a reason, but some we must hold on to, or hold on to us. So for all you friends out there who haven’t talked in awhile, pick up the phone and call, or send a text saying “hey thinking about you”. You will feel better for bringing your light back into someone’s life.
~Tet~
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96405
2008-05-13 13:08:18
I wrote something that actually frightened me. Where the heck did it come from? What deep dark place could I have drawn from to write something so perverse? Is it some form of my self conscious? GOD, I hope not. Is it years of watching scary movies and the numb in the face of violence shown daily through the media? This I hope is the case.
The story is unlike anything I thought myself capable of. Albeit a story, it's the type that if someone read it, especially in this day and age, they would probably question my sanity as well report me to the nearest policeman. I would never post it, ever. I should probably delete it from my collection, but I won't if only to remind myself of it's horror.
Why?
I want to remember that it is not really a place I want to be in mentally.
Remember that GOD gave us the freewill to not act on our most debase of thoughts.
That nothing and no one has the right to make me feel or think that way.
It is not a message I want to send into the world lest it revisit me 3 fold.
I would not want a child to see it, especially mine.
It may hold deeper meanings through the imagery that I need to understand constructively.
Maybe it's time for me to make a decision about ending or starting something.
Figure out what I may be denying myself as it manifests it way through me.
Have I failed somewhere that I need to atone for?
Because fiction is just fiction, no matter how strange, and I wrote it on my own.
I know that some of the stories on here are fiction and are at times explicit, I'm not saying it's not okay. I'm just saying it's not okay for me. Well that's it. I think I've managed to help relieve some of this guilt I have been feeling since typing it.
~Tet~
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96004
2008-05-12 15:40:29
Pronunciation: ˈmin-yən
Function: noun
Etymology: Middle French mignon darling
Date: circa 1500
1 : a servile dependent, follower, or underling
Everyone has known one or maybe even been one, you know who I’m talking about right? That friend, coworker even family member, that lives for nothing but to chase after you or the boss or someone to serve. Their noses so far up the intendeds butt, you smell the s**t on their breath when they speak. Even the word itself makes your skin crawl doesn’t it? This word denotes the lowest of the low.
Think Grima Wormtongue……now you’re getting the picture. If you had someone lowering themselves to you, would you not take advantage of it? COURSE YOU WOULD!
So to keep yourself from falling into the trap, or maybe open your eyes somehow of your very own made minion hell, here are some traits of the minion.
1. You will not speak your mind nor contradict anything that’s said. (“Anything you say Master.”)
2. You blabber on and on inanely about conversations or events that ended hours even days ago. (“HE asked ME to do this. HE said MY name in his speech.”)
3. You will not admit mistakes or defeat to keep from being a disappointment or look bad. (“It was HIS/HERS/THEIR fault. It’s never my fault.”)
4. You play the martyr at every turn, without asking for the help. (“Oh look at me having to work this weekend, because nobody else will.”)
5. You change your entire lifestyle to be around that someone at all times. (“Seriously, I want to be the 5th wheel alone at a dinner with every else’s spouses.”)
6. You make every attempt to “woo” this person even at the expense of your dignity. (“Tell your wife I said hello.” “What?” “Tell your wife I said hello.” “What?” “Tell your wife I said hello.” “Why?”)
7. You are openly laughed at and made fun of for being overly “helpful”. (“How high DID you do that?”)
8. You can no longer remember the lies you have told trying to be impressive. (“I have no idea happened (see number 3). But surely that wasn’t the case then.”)
9. You cannot accept the fact that there may be someone better than you. (“You know that thing you already did? I just spent 6 hours redoing it for no reason.”)
And the worst of the worst traits of the minion:
10. You have never earned respect on your own in your entire adult life. You have never made a decision in your entire life not approved by the Master you serve. You are a waste of space in the lives of the people around you and you only got to where you are now by riding the coat/skirt tails of the person you debase yourself too. Your complete ineptitude and lack of pride, knowledge or convictions are driving you forward to a complete and utter failure as a person, friend, and colleague.
You may see something that reminds you of you in this rambling. Don’t get too wrapped up in it. Don’t dismiss it, sometimes apathy can lead to a place worse than being a minion.
Just be true to yourself. Don’t allow anyone to treat you less than what you are. Tell the truth, even when it hurts, speak your mind, even if it goes against convention. Have respect for others, but especially yourself. Being a minion will take you nowhere you want to be and if somehow it does, no one will respect you, not even the Master you serve.
~Tet~
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95977
2008-05-12 14:07:56
Alright guys, I wasn’t gonna leave you out to dry like that. I’ve run across my fair share of loser girlfriends. You know the ones I’m talking about, you latched on to her like a leech and wouldn’t let go. Now guys, nobody blames you for your choice of women, or choice to stay. Whatever you call her, the old lady, the ball and chain, the other half, she’s yours.
In case you are not sure if she’s a keeper or not, here are some warnings that you have a loser girlfriend:
1. She is devoted completely to you from the get go. WARNING!: She has no life, she has no self worth and she is looking to you to replace her Daddy.
2. She calls you just to say ‘Hi’ more than once a day. WARNING!: She is checking up on you, whether you are at work, home or play.
3. She has had none or an ungodly amount of boyfriends. WARNING!: She is immature and still in high school mentally, or she is trying to fill a void in her left by the loser boyfriends before you.
4. She is an extremely homely looking girl and you are still with her. WARNING!: Apparently she can do one thing really well, or maybe she can further your career. Either way, not good reasons to hold on to anybody.
5. She is more than happy to put her life on hold for you. WARNING!: This is not a good thing. A woman who will live vicariously through you will eventually want to run your life.
6. She has given up caring for her skin, her hair, or her figure. WARNING!: She has grown complacent in the relationship and you no longer hold her interest. This is a precursor to an affair.
7. She spends too much time caring for her skin, her hair, or her figure. WARNING!: She IS having an affair. Remember when she put that much effort into look good for you? Well, now she’s doing it for someone new.
8. She thinks both of your careers are more important than settling down. WARNING!: She wants to be able to leave you in a moment for the newer, faster, better, richer model.
9. You know she knows you are the loser boyfriend and she stays with you anyway. WARNING!: Make sure your bank account is well guarded, as well as your penis, because you never know who’s been making withdrawals and deposits.
10. She still calls her Daddy, ‘Daddy’. WARNING!: She has approval issues and she really means it when she calls YOU that. Ewwwwwwwww! (see warning 1)
I’m not saying which of those I was, I think we women can be guilty of at least one in our lifetimes. But guys, if you can apply more than a couple to her right now, you may want to take a second look. This is not a guide, but remember, this is from a woman, and can I be a bigger b***h or what?
~Tet~
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95962
2008-05-12 12:42:40
You know him, admit it. Heck, you could be him. You may have dated him *raises hand* or are dating him now. (THAT’S A LOT OF HANDS!) Don’t fret, nobody blames you or judges you, cos we all know why you are with him, at least until you come to your senses. ;-P.
But there is the fantasy and the reality to a loser boyfriend. And here are 10 signs for spotting the reality of a loser boyfriend:
1. Fantasy – “He is the golden boy of your dreams.” – He’s fit, tan, young and your adoring Adonis. He only has eyes for you, and treats you like a queen.
Reality – “He is a male slut.” – He looks good because he is that shallow, how else is he going to hook another one? As long as you’re putting out, he’ll put you on.
2. Fantasy – “He wants to take it to the next level, he wants to be serious.” – He wants you to be his girl because you’re really something special that he wants to hold on to.
Reality – “He is marking his territory.” – You’re giving it to him, and he doesn’t want you giving it to anyone else.
3. Fantasy – “He’s really tired from a long day at work.” – He wants to cuddle with you because there is more to your relationship than sex.
Reality – “He’d rather sleep than have another night of sex with you.” – He’s got what he wanted, and now he doesn’t want it anymore.
4. Fantasy – “He’s just hanging out with the guys.” – He’s taking a little ME time to bond with his best mates.
Reality – “He just ran out of dollars to give the stripper jiggling her junk in his face!” – He’s priming himself at a strip club before coming home to you.
5. Fantasy – Cell phones, smart phones, or PDA’s on all the time. – He’s very important and needs these to be in contact with anyone, anytime.
Reality – They are an electronic alarm system. – Those different ring tones have replaced the stars in a little black book.
Let me do a little decoding for you:
Mission Impossible ringtone = “Lays there like a wet fish.”
Psycho ringtone = “Has sex like a wild banshee, but never take her home.”
James Bond ringtone = “Latest ‘younger model’ pursuit.”
6. Fantasy – “No I am not having an affair! How many times do I have to tell you?” – He’s disappointed that you would think that about him and is now questioning YOUR loyalty.
Reality – “Oh no, she knows! I’ll just keep shifting the blame to her, that’ll shut her up.” – Do the words, “I THINK THOU DOST PROTEST TOO MUCH!” mean anything to you? They should.
7. Fantasy – He sends you flowers with a card that says, “I love you I’ll be home soon”, from 2000 miles away because he can’t be there due to work. – He’s finally come to his senses and realized he just can’t live without you.
Reality – He needs you to look after the house, the bills, the dog, while he’s gone. – He’s giving it to the 20 something local girl he’s shacked up with and is now in stage one of this relationship with her.
Stage eight, nine and ten:
NO FANTASY
ALL REALITY
8. This can take a long time to actually happen, a woman’s intuition only lies to her self, but when she finally listens, watch out! Whatever your reasons for staying with him were, have now gone out the window.
9. That rodeo cowboy, biker dude, 19 year old virgin, rich oil man, are all looking like a puupuu platter with your name written all over it.
10. Before you do that, get the loser boyfriend right where it will hurt him. Take yourself shopping ;-P!! Then go back to that buffet bar of men you left waiting outside.
The next time you encounter a guy that tells you the sob story about the ex who cleaned him out, kicked him out and “cheated” on HIM, remember this story. There is most likely a reason it’s happened to him….oh! and that fast new sports car he’s driving, IS compensating for something.
~Tet~
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95720
2008-05-11 22:51:47
Somewhere I feel I’ve written about this before. I can’t find anything in my collection, maybe it’s just been a thought I’ve had and felt unqualified to write about or even felt it pretentious of me. Who am I to tell anyone how to find happiness, let alone discuss my own happiness?
It’s not like this is a how to message, but at the same time, if it works for me, why shouldn’t I say how I feel I do it? To be sure though, I have my blue days, we all do, but those days do not consume my life. I get angry on occasion, but again, I get over it. Everyday though, I feel happiness is the song in my life.
Here are 10 keys that help me to find happiness:
1. Reading “The Celestine Prophecy” – It was not that long ago, maybe 11 or 12 years ago, but this book changed my life and helped me start my path to happiness. I highly recommend it to anyone.
2. Forgiveness – I’ve always heard it, but took years to practice it. Learning to forgive the worst and the smallest of offenses has quieted my soul. The most important step to finding happiness in my opinion.
3. Prayer/Meditation – I was afraid to speak my thoughts and take time to contemplate my life in the quiet and dark. Once I did, the rewards were understanding, knowledge and answers to the many questions we all ask.
4. Accepting my self, flaws and all - No one and I mean no one is perfect. I do not compare myself to others for any thing. I am my own ideal, I am what I am. I can accept this.
5. There is a difference between being alone and being lonely – This is one of the hardest keys to accept. Learning to live with myself first, I eventually found my days surrounded by joy and never lonely even alone.
6. Make time for joy – I don’t mean going out with my buddies on a Friday night. I believe true joy is in the world around me. Through children’s laughter, the scent of spring flowers, lying in the park with the sun on your face, or walking barefoot in the rain.
7. The grass is not always greener on the other side – I don’t even know what to say except, it isn’t. Always changing jobs, boyfriends, cities, clothes, hair, weight, didn’t fix the real problem. Figuring out what it is and working on that one thing helps settle me.
8. Holding on to my dreams – I have one dream, and everyday I get closer and closer to it. It fills my heart with joy to know that one day I will be in Egypt in front of the pyramids. It keeps me going through the hard days.
9. Making a difference in the world – Whether it be recycling, volunteering my time, raising my children well, donating money to charity, I’m making an impact. All it takes is one person, then another, and another…...
10. I have one life, live it well - Only I can make it a happy one. From the choices I make to the people I love, it’s mine to do with what I will. It’s never someone else’s fault or responsibility if my life is not filled with happiness. I know this to be true.
Well that’s it, I feel good I have put this down in writing. Thanks for reading.
If you have your own path of happiness, let me know what you’re doing or have done to get there.
~Tet~
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95416
2008-05-10 22:17:51
It all started when the underwire in my current fave bra began to shuffle loose its bonds. Oh, I struggled with it for a couple of days, kept adjusting the underwire, sliding it back into place. But this wire was determined to keep poking me in the sensitive area of my armpit and the under part of my arm I refer to as “the grandma flap”.
By the third day, I had reverted to my back up bra, the one with the bra straps that are just a little loose and the little sliders never stay where they are supposed to. So I start out the day with the girls held high, but by the end of the day, they are resting nicely on my rib cage. Are you getting the picture?
So I take myself to the lingerie department at *insert any major department store here, cos I went to them all* and begin to try on the torture devices known as bras.
That’s when I remember the 10 reasons I hate bra shopping:
1. I’m sorry, with that many hooks it is a straight jacket.
2. With those straps, who needs shoulders?
3. What the heck do I need padding for? I have double d’s, hello?!
4. No, I don’t want you to measure me! (perv)
5. You mean “quadro-boob” is not IN this season?
6. No really, I like them that pointy.
7. Beige is the new black.
8. I wonder if I attach a deckchair to this if I could sail away?
9. How on Earth can this make them a size smaller? (see number 5)
10. I’M NOT PAYING THAT MUCH UNLESS IT COMES WITH A NEW SET OF BOOBS TOO!
And, as usual, I walk out with the same style of bra I have worn for years now. Same colors, as in none, same darn bra I get every time. So why do I put myself through the shame and humiliation? Well, I have to have something to complain about, otherwise I would be doing this:
“I have BIG BOOBS, I have BIG BOOBS, neener, neener, neener!”
~Tet~
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95399
2008-05-10 21:11:06
So I previously wrote about what I know now and what I wish I knew then. (I really appreciated so many of you reading it by the way!) It started me thinking that being older is really great! At the same time, I thought of more of the differences between then and now. The term, “it’s not the years, it’s the mileage” really starts to mean something here.
I really do hope none of you are doing some of the crazy things I did. And before you get any ideas, I will never tell them here, lest “they” find me. =)
I just wanted to share some differences in having fun, then and now:
1. THEN: Climbing trees – Because there is nothing more fun and frightening at 9 than getting to the highest limb. NOW: Climbing the stairs to the tenth floor – ‘Oh God…*wheeze*….please….let….
*cough*…..me….make….*gasp*….it?!?...(without passing out) – Because there is nothing more frightening at 39 than thinking you’ll have a heart attack in a stairwell.
2. THEN: Skinny dipping at the beach in the moonlight – Because I can. NOW: Lounging on the floaty at the apartment pool, fully suited – Because I can’t get myself into the skinny anymore.
3. THEN: Dancing the night away in gay bars – “It’s raining men, hallelujah, it’s raining men!” NOW: Dancing around the mess in my teenagers room – “Now your Mom threw away your best porno mag!”
4. THEN: Constantly on the go – I had places to be, people to see and things to do. NOW: Constantly on the couch – Nowhere to go, no one to see and I’m pretty certain I don’t have to do THAT anymore.
5. THEN: Playing depressing music by all my favorite New Wave bands – I am teenage angst, hear me whimper. NOW: Playing uplifting music by all my favorite New Age bands – I am confident and fulfilled, hear my song!
6. THEN: Hanging out at the local record store – Cos I was cool like that. NOW: Hanging out at the local video game store – Cos I’m still cool like that.
7. THEN: Riding on a Harley – Sun, sand, surf, bugs, rain, broke down on the side of the road! NOW: Riding in an airplane – Much faster, plus my jeans don’t ride up in my crotch as much.
8. THEN: Drinking the night away with friends – Sex and drugs and rock n roll! NOW: Watching “Friends” on tv, drinking water – Cos “those” kind of friends I can do without.
9. THEN: Having sex all night with my lover – Who needs sleep? NOW: Sleeping 8 hours in a row – Who needs sex?
10. THEN: Hanging out all day at the canal, roller skating, fishing for crabs and jellyfish, playing jacks – I was a kid, that’s what kids do! NOW: Wishing I was hanging out all day at the canal, roller skating, fishing for crabs and jellyfish, playing jacks – I am an adult now, that’s what adults do.
The next time you are having fun, remember it, that way it will last forever. You’ll have rich memories to make you smile, some that will break your heart and some that will be nothing but priceless when you get older.
As Auntie Mame said: “Life is a banquet and most poor suckers are starving to death!”
So I say, “Get out there and start eating!”
~Tet~
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94380
2008-05-07 23:19:23
For those of us at “this age”, we can remember that there was nothing you could tell us at “that age”. We knew it all didn’t we? But really, how little we knew, and don’t learn for years to come either.
And this is not so much a list of regrets, although it could be seen that way, I’m glad I was the way I was, otherwise I wouldn’t know these things now and be able to say, hey, listen here!! Nothing worse than a hypocrite trying to tell you something they’ve never experienced, am I right?
In some order, here are the things I know now that I wish I knew at 19:
1. I was gorgeous! – Only by the simple matter that I was young and had the rest of my life to deal with looks. Wish I didn’t obsess on it at a time when I didn’t need to.
2. You’re not alone. – No matter how bleak life can be sometimes, no one is truly alone. Reach out to someone near you when you’re down, you’ll be lifted.
3. The worst they can say is ‘No’. – If that’s the worst they can throw at you, move on. It’s not the end of the world and eventually, you’ll get a yes.
4. Some form of patience. – I don’t quite have this down as much as I would like even now, wish I had started earlier on this.
5. Save more money. – Nothing more frustrating than starting at 35 what you could have started at 20.
6. The first won’t be the last. – Never fall in love every time. You can end up with “a thousand wasted kisses”, and a broken heart, over and over again.
7. Laughter IS the best medicine. – Have fun, don’t be so serious, moody, brooding and angst-ridden all the time. But stay out of trouble.
8. Age is the great qualifier. – For everything you do, make the most of it. If you’re 19 and starting out, listen to the gray haired person teaching you the ropes, you’ll be them one day.
9. Faith can make you stronger. – I’m not preaching one religion over another, I don’t care what you believe in, as long as you trust me when I say, believe in something.
10. Family is everything. – Love them no matter what slight may happen. One day you’ll wake up feeling robbed after you’ve missed spending the holidays with your Father, or your brother become a doctor, or not speaking to your Great-Gramma for months, only to one day find them gone, with no apologies and no final words of “I love you”.
Not to get too melancholy, but remember that life is meant to be lived, never forget what makes you, YOU, in the time that you have. And share every possible moment of joy and all of its experiences with others whenever you can.
Cos I know now in 20 years and I look back and have 10 more things that I wish I knew at 39 that I’ll know at 59….I can’t wait to find out what it will be!
~Tet~
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92476
2008-05-02 09:52:34
Seriously, this is my new goal in life. I must do this by August 11, 2008. I remember hitting 5K points and just being ecstatic. Then I just hit 6K. Wow! Wait, if I can get this score, then surely I must be able to get 10K? Then of course it will be 12K, 15K, etc etc etc.
So, I looked around and realized I have the games to do it. I just need the time and the willpower, and enough Full Throttle Fury, to get it done. I thank the games that got me here, Oblivion, Saint’s Row, Mass Effect, Assassin’s Creed, and my various arcade games. And now it’s time to get it done.
With a current GamerScore of 6085, here’s my plan:
1. Assassin’s Creed – I’m not actually done with this one. Just 300 more points to go though. What an awesome game!! (I’ll do a play through write up when I’m done, natch.) 300 gp
2. Mass Effect – Still a few achievements to go on this. And I will get them! This game is far too awesome to not play again and again! (See my level 1 play through write up already posted, ditto.) 180gp
3. Viking – Plugged this disc in for a quick overview. Reminds me of Fable and a mix of something else I can’t put my finger on. But a good looking hack-n-slash nonetheless. 1000gp
4. Lost Odyssey – Holy moley! Can this game be more beautiful? It plays along the lines of my beloved Gamecube Game, Tales of Symphonia, so I know I’m gonna like this one! 1100gp
5. Bully – Similar to GTA and Saint’s Row in style of play and direction of story. I’m just not so good at the being the Bully yet. But I’m really looking forward to playing. 980gp
6. Overlord – Started this game a long time ago, got 30 points and stopped. I had problems with the camera control mainly. I want to be in control of what I see, not the box. 1220gp
(now I know that does it to the 10K+ mark, but there are a few others games to play)
7. Phantasy Star Universe – I don’t know about this one. I seem to be running around far too much. And what is the deal with all the doors? Grrrrrr! 1250gp
(that’s 12K+ now….=) )
8. Two Worlds – OMG! One of the worst games I’ve ever played. But for some reason, I know I must finish it. 805gp
9. Saint’s Row 2 – How can it not be awesome? You get to play as a girl this time!! 1000gp
10. Fable 2 – How can it not be awesome? You get to play as a girl this time, and get achievements!! 1000gp
Well, that’s the list. Not quite to 15K, but I have some various arcade games to finish, Arkadian Warriors, Carcasonne, Pinball that will fill in the remaining points. Although I hope to get to 10K by August, I hope to get to 15K by the end of the year.
Fingers crossed, as I finish, I will report my success here.
Any suggestions of games are always appreciated as well to help get me to a GamerScore beyond 15K. I have Gears of War, Bioshock and Eternal Sonata at the top of my list of games to buy next. But let me know if there is something else.
~Tet~
ps. GT is Varahn Tet, shocker huh? ]]>
91987
2008-04-30 20:19:04
As we were driving around yesterday and I actually had a little nasal drip happen with a stuffy nose (totally disgusting by the way), it dawned on me that it would have been so much better to be able to just spit it out than have to swallow it. Yes, I swallowed it, ewwwwwwww!! Just thinking about it now is giving me the huzz.
Well then I realized that THAT is a very male trait. In fact, there are many things a guy can do that I can't/won't do. I'm sure we all know the main one, and I'm going to address that, but with my slightly slanted view on things. I'm not trying to say guys are better for being able to do these things, but there are times I am a little jealous.
So in no particular order, things guys can do that I can't/won't and why I think these are the real reasons behind the Battle of the Sexes:
1. Spitting or "hocking a loogy" - It's the whole build up to the hock really. That disgusting guttural sound of flem and mucus being churned up and formed into a ball for proper hocking. Then it lets go with that resounding, phlot!, as it flies feet away from you. For me, any attempt at spitting ends up with me running to the bathroom to get toilet paper to wipe any dribble from my chin. And under no circumstances would I purposely bring any kind of sick into my mouth for emptying.
2. Peeing anywhere/anytime standing up - This one gets me the most. You know when guys are peeing on the side of the road, there is always an empty driver’s seat and a woman in the passenger seat with her hand to head trying to cover her face as everyone drives by staring into the car. When I was pregnant and peeing every 15 mins, being able to do this on those car trips would have been really nice.
3. Thinking farts and the word fart are funny - If I say that word just once in front of a guy, massive guffaws ensue. And what is the deal with out farting each other? You would never find a bunch of women sitting around letting one rip then expect a rating. And tenting! OMG!! Gross!
4. Killing bugs - I cannot do this! Fear grips me, I am immobilized! Then you are chasing me with the now dead bug around the room. What is wrong with you? I know I am not alone here, although, I know there are a lot of women that don't have any problems doing this, but will make you take out the garbage.
5. Not crying at sappy movies - I cried at Revenge of the Sith. And some of the guys did too, some. What the heck? Why do guys hold in their emotions at something that so obviously calls for some kind of crying reaction? And I don't mean the gut wrenching Saving Private Ryan, Black Hawk Down, A Perfect World crying...I'm talking, A Little Princess, Iron Giant, My Dog Skip crying...
6. The three S's - Not you unibrow plucking, tan in a bottle applying, "product" using metrosexuals, I'm talking about real everyday men. You're done in 10 or 15 minutes, and you look great, except, "are you really gonna wear that?" But here I am 45 minutes later still trying to get my hair right, I haven't even started my make up and OMG! "Do I look fat in this dress?"
7. Think being a lesbian is HOT and being a homosexual is wrong - Do I even need to get into this? That's a double standard you misogynistic bastards. Most women think the same of both, right, wrong or indifferent. But they are both the same.
8. WILL NOT change the toilet paper/replace a light bulb/look for the remote - One word, LAZY! (This also explains the stains in the underwear.) Get up off the Lay Z Boy to change the channel and find the remote. Because seriously, I'm not sure how much more of the Chuck Norris infomercial I can take before I throw a shoe at the tv.
9. Be sexually excited in 3 seconds flat - Not that Security Chief Lt. Tasha Yar wasn't a hottie and all, but how the heck can you get a boner with her wearing that costume and THAT haircut? Seriously, come on now! Why can't I do that? It takes me at least 15 minutes to be that excited, unless of course you're Orlando Bloom, but you're not.
10. Lie to us about being the most beautiful woman in the room, not looking fat in the dress, your hair really doesn't look bad that short, your cooking IS the best, spending time with your family, not being upset about missing the first 30 minutes of the game to go to church with you - For this we cannot fault you, for this we say "Thank you dear! "
You guys are gross, beautiful, strong, weak, intelligent, dumber than a doorknob, but God blessed you with the heart and soul to put up with us! Because if it were a bunch of women running around and someone asked if they looked fat in this dress, the answer would be yes! This is where when we look at you, through all your maleness, we will see the best part of our lives. YOU!
There is nothing more fun than the Battle of the Sexes. Why? Because you guys find new and interesting ways to be men, and we will find new and interesting ways to be women.
~Tet~
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91552
2008-04-29 14:29:16
So I went in for light bulbs and pork roast and headed straight for the light bulbs when I spotted…the pillows, or as I call it, random shopping act number 1. Squeals of “Oh my god! Those are so cute!” spewed from my adultish something mouth. Why? They were square, fuzzy, neon colored pillows and they were $4.96!! Anything under 5 bucks is a deal, doesn’t matter if I am actually going to use it. Well, I couldn’t just get a pillow right? I needed to accessorize! Is it going to be the bedroom or front room for my new find? Hmmm?.....new sheets! Random shopping act moment number 2. I shoot over to the bedroom linens and start looking for colors to coordinate with the new pillow. Purple and green, yep, that’s it. For the incredibly reasonable price of $8.88, I now have jersey tee shirt material sheets. Wait, what about a little rug? Something just as fuzzy…Random shopping act moment number 3. (Hey, wait, didn’t I come here for light bulbs? What aisle is that on? I think over here….right!) Yellow fuzzy rug, here I am! And at $5.39, I can’t say no, it’s just too close to that magical 5 dollar mark. I haven’t broken $20.00, I’m okay, light bulbs are what? $2.00? I’ll have just enough. But, I need to get a cart first, I wasn’t expecting to get this much stuff. Darn, forgot about the pork roast…guess I’ll just use the debit card. Hey! I have an “extra” 20 dollars now! I’m going to check out the dvd’s.
Random shopping act moment number 4 involves an actual department move, I have now left house wares, *whispering softly* without light bulbs, and move into electronics. The older DVD’s are a wicked low price of $5.50, that means with my extra twenty I can get, 1,2,3,4! It’s only two extra dollars, $2.00? $2.00? Why does that ring a bell? Oh! The light bulbs! I’ll get those when I’m done here. 30 minutes of shifting the waves of bargain priced dvd’s around in the bin later, I’ve got my 6 movies, because at this point I’m using my debit card anyway and that $20 can pay for the pork roast and, and, and……………..light bulbs!! Just like I was going to. Random shopping act moment number 5 coming up. I head back to house wares to get my light bulbs when I remember I really need to pickup a card for Mother’s Day and as I have forgotten about it until now, I better do it while I’m thinking about it. I turn the cart in the direction of the stationary department bent on picking up the one thing I came here for!!
Staring at the wall of cards for 20 minutes has given me a headache, I’m sweating and my hair is in my face. I glance at my watch and notice it’s 7:30pm, that’s not right? I’ve been here….AN HOUR AND A HALF?? I haven’t even gotten to the checkout lanes yet! Okay, I’ll just get this card and go get the pork roast and get going. I hate this place, it’s loud, it’s bright and ….. oh, aren’t those flip flops cute? That was random shopping act moment number 6. I’m not caring much about the cost at this point, I’m gonna replace it later anyway, I’m not even fussed they cost more than the sheets I just picked out, cos they are soooooo cuuuuute!! Yes, I am an adult, and I pick up a pair of pink ones with huge white flowers on them and plunk them in the cart next to the card and head for the meat section.
No Boston Butt Pork Roasts? Of course!! I really don’t believe it! I have been here for almost two hours and all I really wanted was pork roast and……….dangit, I can’t remember what the other thing was now! Ugh! What was it? Think, think, think. Oh just forget it (not too hard to do at this point) and get to check out.
Random shopping act moment number 7 - Standing in the check out lane I suddenly and very loudly yell out, ‘LIGHTBULBS!’, because at that very moment, one came on in my mind. The lady in front of me turns around and smiles at me like I’m crazy when she’s the one in a Nun’s habit at the Wal-Mart. Everybody else just stares at me as I am exiting the queue that I have just stood 10 minutes in muttering something really obscene under my breath to go get the freaking light bulbs.
I am now faced with a multitude of choices. Remember, $2.00 is all I want to spend on the light bulbs. And since I’ve spent so much more money than I intended, I really need to be careful not to over spend too much. I pick up the Great Value brand soft white 60 watts and notice they are 2 for $5.00. Bing, bing, bing, bing, and score we have a winner!! With my 4 packages of light bulbs gently resting in the top portion of my cart, I head back to the check out lanes. I notice the one last remaining dried out, leather skinned roasted chicken sitting on the warmer and a loaf of French garlic bread and rationalize I’ll be too tired to cook anyway is I might as well just pick that up. Did you spot random shopping act moment number 8?
By now, 8:37pm, I’m really tired. I deposit my goodies onto the conveyor, adding up in my head how much money I’ve just spent and all I came in for was two things and I wasn’t gonna spend more than $20.00, that’s why I brought it with me. But somehow, ironically, the only thing I have left until the next paycheck is that $20.00 bill and I am left standing here wondering to myself, “Why is that Nun still here and why is she staring at me?”
~Tet~
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